I HAD A DREAM WITH MILK

I had a dream about the origin of things.
We were in a remote region of the Sahara. Where long haired animals rummed the streets offering milk and company to strangers. They were allowed to walk free and seek shelter anywhere from the powerful sun of the zone.
Light brown long hair animals with very think coats were protected from the sunlight to avoid overheating by placing a heavy carpet with beautiful embroilment over their backs and they were happy.

Inside the palace we drank tea and fruits while we learned from each other the art of Being. "Why everything is?" I kept questioning myself?

"The secret", my aunt said "is in itself. The fact that it exists is proof of what made it happen."

"How?" I asked. "That's for you to unravel" she said and left me wondered in immense pool of questions, surrounded by people who knew me better than I knew myself as I played with my toys of consciousness in an unconscious world of many passages, rooms and towers.

We were all family in one degree or another. We knew perfectly each other. We knew where we came from and why we were here. What we didn't know was what we'd we choose to become and where we'd be choose to go.
Some of them were playing the existence game, living the moment in pretending they didn't know the end. "Juega tu juego de azar, mientras te entretenga y seas feliz." I kept thinking to myself as I see them submerge their minds in eternal games with same endings all the time. They won... I lost.

They looked at me with amusement, why would I choose to adventure into the dark corners of the mind, trying constantly to unravel the secrets of the universe? For a possible easier existence, more interesting, more flavourful? Who knows. 
It's as if I knew the taste of mango has more to it than just the juice and the sugars and the delicious meat full of fibres of a mango. As if I knew there was a reason for that specific flavour to exist and I wanted to discover what that reason was. So I asked my questions. First to myself, then to others, then to all. Why are we here? Who am I? Why do we love? Why do we live? Why do we die?

I kept asking, running from corner to corner meeting family and friends willing to share some knowledge. The lamp of wisdom was lighted and I needed to read from its flame. I had chosen to be me. But why?

"The secret is on the top of the pyramid, from there 'The All Seeing Eye' looks down and becomes IT... that is the answer you're looking for." I heard someone say.
"Trust that you know as you know. 
Trust that you see as you see."

One second I was in darkness, the next one crying with joy. "I know, I know" I began to shout to all my people. "I know, Dark Matter is consciousness, of course is there but is not there because IT hasn't chosen to become all Mater, only the part that it's needed to experience itself, to become self-aware". 
I cried with tears and laughs, messing with their games and interrupting their programs. My family worried and became annoyed  but in their 'not-understanding' understood why did I behave the way I did. They knew I was being myself and so, they let me be me.

Then, I approached my cousin. She was alone playing a board game with complete disinterest in front of the TV, and I came closer. She looked at me and say "now what do you want?".

"I know this fruit choose at some point in its life to become a fruit, and produced sweet juice for all to enjoy" I said. "So?" My cousin instantly added. "Well, if the fruit has the conscience to choose it existence so do we and that proves that everything we experience is of your own choosing. Since you are only experiencing yourself. However, we humans, as a self- conscious organism, we got the power to choose again if you don't like your reality or we have outgrown the reality. A fruit cannot. It needs to die in its current reality to choose a new form of reality. We humans can Change everything!. We can choose whenever we want and need a different reality and Change it. That is Dark-Matter. That's why nobody can see it because there's no-thing to see. It is the consciousness of IT all. That what you may call God, that's what I choose to call LOVE. That is what holds everything together. That is it"

And in a wormhole of time and space I found myself lying in my bed awakening from a dream that told me the reality of my existence and I woke up to another day. Today is 20th of September 2013, 5:33am.

GOT MILK?

333

Judgement Day - A Date with Destiny's Child

September 7th. Saturday, 2013

I meet the love of my life. 7:30pm. I'm waiting outside Turnpike Lane station. Has been raining all day. It's wet but the rain has stopped. Someone walks in front of me checking the line of bikes parked outside the station's main entrance. He chooses one bike at the end of the row, takes a cutting plier out of his pocket and begins to cut through the cable that secures the bike to the post. He is stealing the bike right in front of me. He knows I'm there and that I'm seeing him. He continues. 

I'm still waiting, is only 3 minutes past 7:30 in the evening. My mind begins to wonder why am I seeing that man steal the bike and why am I doing nothing but staring as if he were a child doing something childish? Little by little he cuts through the thick cable and the bike gets free. He jumps on and rides away, never looking at me or anyone else. He disappears.

Yonny walks out of the station. Our eyes meet for the first time. I notice the light, the spark in his eyes I saw before on his pictures online. He thinks I'm too tall, I think he's too short. We kiss cheeks and greet. We move on.

Fresh memories are created during the night. Romance, passion, insecurity, fear, wonder, freedom, madness, magic and a shooting star in the starry sky.  

Monday 9th, September 2013.

Rains, it's 7:30pm again. We meet for the second time, this occasion I invite him over my place. I want him to know who IAM and where I live. During the weekend he visited my public house and became my Facebook friend. I called him Angel. He has doubts in his mind but his heart and curiosity are much stronger. He walks through the door and respects my home as he takes his shoes off without me speaking a word. He asks for a pair of sandals. I offer mine. He accepts. We talk.

The confrontation is intense, he knows everything that there's to know about me and he does not know what to make of that. Way too much information but he process the best he can. I confront and revisit my house of horrors. Demons fly out and I see them around, we feel them in the flat, behind our backs, in front of each other. We know we are facing all our greatest fears all over again, both of us equally confronted. Both in our own special way, and beauty conquers the moment. His handsome eyes spark like never before. Fears are defeated. We finally kiss and his arms open and welcome my head as I place it over his chest. I feel his hand touching my hair and I kiss it. 

Many, many questions fly over our heads. Is this true? What's true? Is he the one? Can I trust? What now? What if? No answers, just inner silence as the candles burn and the music plays in the background with classics from the iPhone.

We begin to say goodbye and we stand away from the sofa that provided us with comfort and safety during the intense questioning and confrontation. He begins to get ready and dresses up to face the cold outside. I approach from behind and I hug him putting my arms around his small waist. I'm one head taller than him and I kiss his neck. We dance with the music as twin flames in the dark. Time stops while we continue. 

Before his final goodbye, I say the words. "I love you". He panics. I hold him and say I'm sorry while explaining. He nervously smiles and let it go, as if it never happened. One more kiss at the door step. We say good bye. He walks away. I see him disappear. He never turns or looks back. 

I hopped he did.

Nonsense Dreams - Time will tell

-LOOSE YOUR MIND WIN YOUR FREEDOM-

WE are coming to the dawn of your time on Earth. As part of our consciousness level WE invite you to cross over to the new and forget the old. 

1) take a deep breath

2) close your eyes

3) prepare to die

If the idea frightens you, then take all the time you need. When you're ready try again.

UNDERSTAND SOMETHING:

You cannot be reborn if you are not willing to die. 

All your drama to stay alive only keeps alive your suffering in believing you are dying. To realise Higher Consciousness WE NEED TO CHOOSE TO FLY HIGH AT ALL TIMES. 

Your mind is keeping you away from yourself as the executioner of your experience on Earth. You are part of much more intelligent forms of existence. The power that you are is equal to the power of the Sun. 

If you choose to believe, then choose death of concepts about yourself knowing you will always survive. If you see it as the end, the end shall be. You'll be so close to darkness, fear and desperation and the only way out will be found at the moment when you find yourself and in that precise instant, WE WILL WELCOME YOU INTO HEAVEN.
Only then you will be offered the keys to unlock the next level of Awareness as New Consciousness in an old mind.

ARE YOU READY?

"Let your beautiful intuition guide you with its light throughout the darkness of your life"

Emris 333 ❤ WE ARE ONE

MY TRUTH

It was 3:33am when one policeman knocked on my door and the other jumped in from my window, paramedics followed. I had called on facebook for someone to save me and call 999. Couldn't save myself, I had the worse pain and it was killing me .
On spring 2013 received confirmation. I had healed myself of HIV with results and proof of this. However, my emotional system crashed when I realised no one wanted to hear the news. I couldn't believe how nobody cared, not doctors, not media, not friends and family, not anyone. It was like the reality of this transformation was only an illusion in somebody's mind or only affecting myself and not the over 33million people living with a positive diagnosis around the globe. My brother said: "Who healed? You? Then ONLY for you should be really important" and I was shocked and sadden to the core by this truth.

If the 'negative' results had been achieved why I was still feeling sick?
Why did my mind needed the reassurance not only from a paper that proves it but also from my people? Why?
Why the 'negative' results didn't matter to keep me healthy and regain my strength? Why?
Why I was growing weaker even after achieving what I always wanted? Why?
Why I was not getting the response expected from everyone not even myself. Why I was not happy?

Realised I healed myself for the wrong reasons. I wanted fame and fortune, to be praised and admired by my success and not for creating an unconditional benefit for myself and for the world. I was charging for my services and wisdom, making profit of what didn't belong to me, demanding attention and adoration and I paid the highest price. At some point my mind was completely out of control, believing that I was god almighty with the ability to walk on water and fly if I wanted, created an alter-ego of great power, so much that I healed myself in the body, unfortunately not in the mind. That came later when I realised the true meaning of health and the blessing of pain.

Feeling alone in this quest, thought that the people who awoken me would be the same ones to save me but I was wrong and quite disappointed when saw that they couldn't even save themselves. Dying one by one taking all their faith and trust with them. No one wants to hear about life from someone who's dying or dead, thou it represents sometimes the greatest lessons of all.
Many people belonging to the "conspiracy theory" about HIV were as sick in the mind as they pretended to not be in the body and I knew then, I didn't want to die like them. Angry and frustrated with a system that didn't protect and save the ones it served but completely the opposite. Even in truth, they were wrong. As someone said: Is not about the Truth but how you say it.

I asked for help in the transition from healing the body and the mind but that help never came, was then when I realised the help needed to come from within, in that moment I turned and became a god and did what nobody could, alone and without a transplant of medula or medication. I became healthy, pure and simple. That was my greatest miracle.
If Truth is accepted or not does not changes the essence of it, Truth is Truth, that's it. My truth or your truth or everybody's truth or nobody's truth is irrelevant. What is IS. I learned the lesson the hard way.

Now I'm learning to live my Truth without needing others to accept it, like it or share it. If I want to be an example of love and happiness, I only have to be it. "Let others be while I just simply walk my path", this is my New Truth and the end of a chapter of sickness and dis-ease. Now it's time for Love, Peace and Pray.
God bless you all who read this and even more the ones who wont. Thank you.

NOTE:

5 Years ago to this date a gipsy told me in Madrid that I came to this world to bring down a man from the pedestal he was on. I never though that man was going to be myself. The fall from the clouds was painful as hell and my heart still hurts. However, I finally realise the death of Egoic-Time and I PRAY for Consistency, Patience and humility for whatever purpose, to whomever serves 3:3:3

LoveAlways
xXx

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

-Special thanks to the soul who called 999 on that night between life and death and the magic of sychronicity at 3:33am . You know who you are even thou we have never met in person, since that night a piece of my heart belongs to you. You saved my life and my soul. You gave me Hope. God bless you.

- FOR MORE INFORMATION
About becoming a god and learning how to heal yourself.
Please contact me on my facebook
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Day One

A new cycle begins. One of trust, love, beauty and amazing transformations. Not saying that the last cycle wasn't all that too but this one will be focus on myself, saving my life and not trying to become the saviour of the world.
Yes, there's a part of me that wishes things had been different and people would've listened to what I had to say and pay more notice of people like me but if that had been the case, well, this world would be completely different and either be in a greater chaos or in a wonderful peace. Anyway, things happened for a reason and I'm happier with the results as life unfolds.
Just to imagine how things could've been different if I had fully healed myself, I'd be walking on water and guiding millions over mountains and shit like that. OMG, thanks god that didn't happened since as we now know, I don't give a shit about saving the world and its habitants (humans)
I'm pretty happy and I have no problems with someone suffering, ill or in problems when I know is part of their growth and not as result of an injustice caused by others and even that is part of their own path of learning and enlightenment.

How liberating is to live my life for my own pleasure.

Thank You, thank me, thank god
LoveAlways
xXx

Lost and Found

Finding the strength to get up every single time when we find ourselves down and lost is another way to build inner character and power, though we can see this only from above. How many times have I fallen? Probably I've spent more time flat on the ground than straight up but every time becomes easier to find the balance to stand proud and enjoy the view.

Seven years ago I was in a very similar situation, looking into the future with no idea of what was about to come, then everything looked dark and scary. Like seeing a big mountain in front of you and not knowing how to tackle it and begin climbing. Fear and doubt clouded the vision and the heart but HOPE made possible the first step into the unknown and with that came the second and the third. Somehow one day we made it to the top.

Seven years ago I felt I had nothing, my life was upside down waking up from a the nightmare of fears, sadness, anger and insecurities to a world of meditation, self healing and natural remedies. Where the quest thought was to find God, instead i found myself and call myself God while showing the world how to come back from death and live to tell the story.
Becoming the saviour of the world made me understand we are here first to find our true selves, then the rest is easy, very easy as happiness and health simply happens instead of being pursued, but first we have to ask ourselves and keep asking.
It's almost incredible that the most difficult question is the simplest of them all -'who am I' and I'm beginning to fear may be the only one never fully answered, thou understanding this darkness gets all other questions answered which makes things shine in the light and life turns alright.

Now, seven years later a new cycle begins and I still have no idea what's about to happen but trust everything will be alright and have everything and no-thing I need to make a great adventure come to life. I'm grateful that the circumstances are pretty decent and easy to deal with. I've been asking myself what do I need now? actually i need only time to make new dreams come true. Need nothing we don't have, having all the tools and comforts well covered. Even much money wouldn't change life that much different, thinking it'd actually take the edge off from this moment and I want to live it in full from the very beginning. I know money will come and I'm looking forward to welcome it in abundance only to give me the freedom to step into my next big mountain which will come for sure. Winners, we keep building the wealth in wisdom and experience to make life...MY LIFE, whatever it is, it's great.

Seven years ago I felt lost, today I've been found. The rest in the air and it smells of eternal gratitude. Special thanks Sioban for finding us at 3:33, I always believe in the kindness of strangers. God bless you in your travels.

LoveAlways
xXx

Turning to the dark side

On my last post dated Jun 14th, I stated that there was a lack of inspiration in my everyday breathing and that something needed to be done to continue the journey. In the last 12 days many things of powerful outcomes had happened. First I realised that whatever I was doing or being wasn't making me happy. There was a part of me denying the identity I builded up over the last 7 years. I was killing myself emotionally when at the same time healing the body. Of course this was not going to happen, one cannot heal unless everything heals. I couldn't undertand what was wrong or not completely right. I was surviving with bread and water that put me in an anaemic state with a full collapse of my immune system once again for almost 30 days. But why? I had become the example I was meant to be, I was good at what I was doing, people were loving me and things were looking brighter... and still I was not happy. I began to sabotage the progress made, cancelling clients and falling into depression.  

At some point a friend asked me, what is what you want? I said, -I don't know but I know that I don't want to become a slave of my own progress, I see people in a vicious circle getting clients, making sure you keep them happy, when at the same time trying to be happy myself, becoming a commodity for people that can pay my fees while ignoring the one who can't pay or just leaving few hours for charity work since I had to worry about making a living first... This is normal standards in our world nowadays but that visualisation did not inspire me one bit. So what do I want? I had no idea... but I certainly knew what I didn't want and it wasn't that.

First, I realised that on top of all my priorities was the need to be part of the human society, be accepted, loved while I'm useful and beneficial to them. Everything I've done in the last 7 years was to become the best I could possibly be to serve as an example to my fellow humans. I healed my life, body and my mind... but still wasn't enough to get the recognition I was hopping to get. So I decided to stop trying. I decided to make myself, my life and my happiness first priority on my list but that presented another dilema, I had built an identity so well constructed and powerful that I didn't know how to step out of it. So how to start from scratch when I need to drag with me the ideas of what people have of me. I was not just going to make a gradual transformation. I needed to make a clean up start simply because that's the way I am. Don't have the responsibility of a family or children to support and can take any decision in my life without affecting anyone. 

So I did and I'm much happier now

xXx

 

Again, start all over again?

I know exactly what to do next, I just have to start all over again. I've done it many times and I'm great starting things up. I know that whatever I choose will be a success and that it will be beautiful. However, I've started so many things for so long and many of those things lost in the mud that I'm not that excited about new projects. It's like "whatever" not even the memories of long awaited paradises spark the excitement inside my heart.
Yes, I know it feels good to start something but I can't believe this time is the good one, is not like that. I just don't care anymore to get up in the morning to create a beautiful brand new day. The sun through my window does not inspire the dream of a happy day, food has become a chore instead of pleasure and I have to trust that things will get better somehow. Simply because if they don't get better, they probably get worse which we don't want but certainly we don't care.

Somehow we have to find the inspiration out of somewhere to get back on the train and continue our journey.

xXx

NOW WHAT

Don't know what to do next? My life has completely changed in the last few years, reinventing every single aspect of it. I hardly recognise myself in the mirror, I'm not sure of anything anymore, even the food I used to love is not longer of my taste, my body is not the same whatsoever and after so long trying to be different from what I was, I think I finally achieved my goal, which leads me the topic of this blog: What Now??
I'm passing through moments of boredom and emptiness not sure what to do next, what to bring into my life to take the place of what is not longer there, while making sure not to fall victim of my own conditionings being careful not to try to put my old skin back, it wouldn't fit anyway.
So, what's next? To be patient and wait for adventure to knock on my door? Maybe, since I'm not very keen on going out chasing big dreams, at least not at the moment, been there and done that many times anyhow. Now, I'm actually enjoying the nothingness of this moment for the first time in my 42 years trying to fit in while seeking Truth and excitement. Thou sometimes gets a bit boring and lonely, besides that it's all beautiful.

- A couple of days back had a very powerful Revelation. I was feeling quite bad in the mornings as I woke up. Having had pneumonia for 3 consecutive years, ending up in hospital and in coma the last time, I knew the symptoms and they match with the ones felt that morning and for the last few weeks, plus heart problems for lack of exercise and liver failure induced by all the crap I eat and drink. In my mind created the worse scenario, kind of recreation of an epic story.
So, packed a little bag with PJs, my book and my laptop and headed to A&E at Saint Mary's hospital sure that I'd be staying there for at least few weeks. Feeling very weak I kept repeating a mantra to help me walk the streets making my way to hospital. I could hardly breath and lack of oxygen made my eyes blurred and my mind dizzy.

Hours passed with screen tests done, blood taken, heart monitor connected, X rays and more, only to come back 100% in perfect condition. My lungs and oxygen levels were in full capacity, liver and internal organ working in perfect harmony, heart beating away like a Salvation drum. All my symptoms were only in my mind and nothing else.

I felt pretty stupid, have to say. For once on a list of 14 years healing from Cancer to Aids holistically and without medication, I got god smacked by what I had now in front of me. Realised how powerful and naughty the mind is, recreating old patterns and beliefs when obviously is not the same anymore. Much work has been done in the inner transformation, physically and spiritually and of course it has produced results. I just though, "I think is time to get sick again" An unconscious thought that this time died before it could cause any more harm as it didn't find fertile ground to grow and for that IAM GRATEFUL :)
SO, What's Next..

Can you see the light?
- www.iBEEcome.com

xXx

Breaking Point... WE HEAL

Testing testing 123...
This is not a drill, please go to your nearest healing point.

Testing how strong everything and everyone is has been something I've been doing naturally since I can remember. People got tested for their love, strength and resilience to stay put. Very few passed the test finding myself all alone and empty handed many times. Making people angry while throwing away great opportunities for not been able to cope with the stress I put on. This beehaviour did not only applied to others or other situations, It applied mainly to myself. I've been testing how strong I am for as long as I can remember. Not doing something because it wasn't safe wasn't reason enough not to do it, in contrast was precisely the driving force to made me dive into the unknown with even more reason. I say "Want me to do something, tell me not to do it"... Sounds familiar? We all know how that feels, don't we? ;)
I couldn't understand at first why I was driven to such dangerous levels beyond the point where the majority of people would dare to go, putting my happiness, sanity and life at risk. My brother pointed at me many times the self-destructive attitude towards my life and everything that surrounded me, making almost impossible to reach the security and peace I was looking for.

I kept pushing and pushing myself to the point of throwing away the life and everything I had but why did I do that? what reason could possibly exist? I knew deep within that the destructive behaviour wasn't about an end but a beginning but couldn't understand anything else. Many times I honestly believed I was the rotten apple of the lot. Something really wrong and evil lived inside of me and the only way to put an end to it was to exterminate it, to kill it, and so, I tried many times to kill myself in unconscious attempts that somehow did not scare me, as if I knew that I'd survive somehow and if I didn't not much was lost. However, a part of me knew best and kept regenerating over and over, It didn't matter how hard I stretched my chances I would hold strong and get stronger as I reached my weakest link. This sparked my Faith... in myself and therefore in society and this world. If I can heal myself, everyone can and not only because all the things we could do to achieve balance, that helps but because of what WE ARE. WE HEAL. Doing healthy things creates logic in our mind and therefore expect results. But what if you believed you could heal regardless of what you do? What would anybody do with that power? Love? hate? create or destroy? It's all possible, why not?

I believe we are beings of light and therefore is in our nature to love each other and oneself. However, how do we test our love, how would anybody know what our love is capable of?
Healing is one of the main abilities of all things in life, don't believe me, just look around and see how powerful we become after each disaster that tests our abilities to heal in the collective as well as individually. Though I believe there are many others with different strengths and weaknesses. Reason why we need to come together and teach each other what we can do, learn and listen from one another is the best and easiest way to beecome fully integrated and complete. I'd love to learn about what you can do, if you still don't know, let me show you what I've discovered about US.

- How to remember something we don't know we know? WE TEST to see what might be there.
- How would anybody understand what we are really made of? WE TRUST there's more.
- How can we reveal our own truth? WE SHARE and that's exactly what we are doing here.

Can you see the light?
- www.iBEEcome.com

333
xXx

CHAPTER 33 ALERTE TO GOD 333

Dear Mark,

Thank you so much for your email, you have no idea how much it means to me to have this first feedback. It has been very difficult to try to understand all that has happened over the years and being ignored or condemn for so long only made it worse.
But if I could ask your opinion about this story, what would you say about it? Is in any way compelling? You think is worth writing it?

I have a lifetime of material to put together a book or several :) but I'm not sure about its potential and my writing skills. English is not my first language as you probably guessed and I feel a bit insecure about outlining a book proposal. Do you think someone would be interested in writing this book together? Would you?

Dear mark, I have no idea how this works, procedures or code of conduct. I truly bless and appreciate this opportunity you give me to be in touch with you. I don't want to abuse your generosity and I'm sorry if I'm asking too much.

humbly yours,
Eduardo
xXx


On 12 Aug 2012, at 09:14, Mark Dowd wrote:

Eduardo

Thanks for this brief summary. It strikes me that your story is much more suited to book than newspaper article treatment. I think doing justice to all the twists and turns and complextities would be so difficult in a mere 1500-1800 words which is all the press give you.

Have you tried writing out an outline as a book proposal? It might be worth a thought…??

Mark

From: Eduardo Blanco [mailto:eduardoblancouk@mac.com]
Sent: 09 August 2012 08:33
To: Mark Dowd
Subject: Re: a friend's story ...

Dear Mark,

Thank you so very much for allowing me to get in touch with you. Sorry for the late reply, I needed time to focus on the right intention and reasons why share this story in confidentiality.
I'm sharing with you one chapter of this story which includes very powerful characters and events that transformed the course of my life.
Will try to be as concise as possible in this first direct communication with you.
I look forward to your feedback and comments.

With immense respect and gratitude
Eduardo Blanco
xXx

CHAPTER 33 - BishopsGate

In 2007 after a couple of years of continue depression, confusion and self-destruction aggravated by a deadly diagnose received a year earlier, Ed met M.
Ed's services as companion were greatly embraced by M who at the beginning gave him a powerful sense of protection and guidance. A feeling that lasted for over 3 years with very compelling results.

With great quantities of money and drugs being poured over him, Ed's life came to an end on the 23 of October, 2007 after a crystal-meth overdose. An episode that got documented on the blog: http://becomingtheoneiwant.blogspot.co.uk/2008/10/light-at-end-of-tunnel-my-story.html one year later.
After coming back from what he felt was the end of his life, Ed began to experience a very powerful awakening of spirituality and consciousness. Knew he needed to leave behind the very toxic behaviours and relationships he had surrounded himself with. However, Ed was still 100% dependent on M's financial support which he needed to repay in services and situations that kept him trapped in the cycle of addictions and fears.

Realised the need for a complete change and traveled to Mexico, only few days after awakening from the OD, a trip to detox physically, mentally and emotionally. Secluded with his mother and her 25+ years of experience as Kundalini and spiritual teacher, he found a connection with some sort of higher consciousness which became stronger with time and Ed realised something big had happen within himself. He became aware of situations never noticed before with the understanding of the illusion that the duality of the mind creates and a connection with a spiritual dimension that filled his Being with so much love and light.

Two months after, Ed's back in London with the conviction to transform his life and his world. He shared his intentions with M and told him about what was going on in his mind and the spiritual awakening he was having. The toxic life-style, dependance to substances and financial help were not longer what he was looking for. With this new awareness his creativity also expanded, by then he had created a handful of beautiful new ideas, one of them became 'the project'. A website to promote health and fitness among communities which in time captivated many minds and hearts even across the oceans reaching companies in NYC and Canada. https://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=153432210584

M could not let go of Ed that easily so offered to help with the creation of iSportYou (the project) if Ed accepted to keep their relationship alive.
Ed felt very happy and believed in Ms good intentions to help him become someone of respect and substance, healed from the inside out. But as the help arrived also the demands. Ed needed to continue providing the fun and toxisity M craved and so much harm caused to Ed's immune system and life. M was perfectly aware of Ed's new natural and alternative approach to self healing, more importantly so with the deadly diagnose he carried over his shoulders which started to demand treatment.

He tried hard to distance himself from that lifestyle without upsetting the benefactor. However, Ed realised that M's offer to help wasn't unconditional, and worse, it was never meant to involved him or his expertise as businessman only his very controlled and manipulative financial assistance.
The more Ed tried to pull back from negativity the more M pull back his support. Unfortunately by that time Ed had already a group of four people working on the creation and programming of the website, a project manager and an office in Mayfair. The expenses were many and he needed to constantly produce large amounts of money to keep the ball rolling. Realised how he got himself inside a very tight force jacket. His relationship with M was not longer only affecting himself but now, it was affecting also the group of people that had believed in him and more importantly in 'the project'. He couldn't continue with that farce for it was not helping anyone but Ms. He kept having his fun... but not for long.

Noticing the dynamics being played Ed finally put a stop to M's demands with the obvious reaction. The project ended and Ed freed himself. From that moment onwards he had the chance to deal with the alternative theory about HIV (http://rethinkingaids.com/) and self healing of my body, mind and spirit.

A couple of years later Ed returned to London after spending 6 months inside the Mayan jungle of central America where he went through another amazing process of transformation and spirituality. His life and identity dissolved under the 11.11.11 alignment and he needed to reinvent himself once again. He began to work as spiritual coach and healer, sharing and using his experience to assist in the evolution of human awareness and the expansion of the mind to better understand who we truly are in relationship with each other and the universe.

http://www.eduardoblanco.com


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Dear Mark, this is just a tiny smear of the complexity and depth of this story. I'd love to share with you so much more if you are ever interested.
Is my hope one day to have this story and biography published to share experience and inspire change, love and light.

Look so forward to hear from you, Muchas gracias desde fondo de mi corazon.
Dios te bendiga hoy siempre

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xXx

On 6 Aug 2012, at 13:21, Mark Dowd wrote:





Eduardo

Estamos en contacto!!

Saludos cordiales,

Mark

DO YOU KNOW GOD?

The most difficult question is the reason why many wont care to answer it -'Do you believe in god?'.
Regardless of their beliefs in either believing or not, nor in which god they serve if they do, people seem to act almost automatically in answering yes or not, never giving much thought to the real answer within themselves. I know, because I never gave it too much thought myself. I was expected to know the answer so I gave every time my best performance. But for me and my inner truth was the only question I could never seem to understand, making my mind get lost in limbo with my face going all confused and startled, never knowing what to say. And to be honest I don't think many people do but they deny the fact that of god they know nothing in the hope that there is some truth in what they've been told to believe.

If you've been following my story for the last few years you'll know I'm a deeply spiritual person. So, how come did I miss the main piece of the puzzle? For many years I thought it wasn't too relevant in my life if either god exists or not. For me was only a very romantic idea of a father figure creator of everything but fixer of nothing and the certain son who came to suffer our pain who was also god and the cute little dove who also happens to be god. What kind of minds can ever understand such confusion and assert they believe in one single god? A god that punishes and tests the validity of love itself in every one of us who dares to exist in the hope of love and happiness.

That would be our job, the primitive mortals. And so, life went on. Had two NDE (near death experiences) one in 2007, the other in 2012, first one induced by a drug overdose, the other by illness. In both I had very powerful contact with a voice, vibration or knowingness that brought me back to life. Certain consciousness that felt as the all knowing, all seeing, all powerful being everybody talks about... but was that god? Or simply the next level up in the ladder of the consciousness and if that's true, how many levels are there? The next question was, if that was god why didn't I become transformed like all those figures who led a whole community across opened waters or created magic with rods and stuff like that? And if it wasn't god who talked to me and brought me back to life? who was it. Maybe was only I talking to myself?

Facing the ultimate question made me avoid it all together. I didn't care that I didn't know. Thou it made it very uncomfortable when someone asked me 'the question' because if I don't believe in a god, what do I believe in? The dark side? The pink side? What! Which is my side?

This question remained unanswered with only close solution. I BELIEVE IN ME. This made me feel fulfilled and satisfied, but did that made me an atheist? I believe in miracles but the one that can be created by a trained and powerful mind, I believe in evolution as the natural way to perpetuate the self awareness and awakening of this planet as a living entity. And more importantly, i believe in love and magic. That was close enough and I could easily understand that concept.... Until last weekend when all changed (25 may, 2013)

During that weekend I had a very close friend visiting me. We were talking about consciousness and spirituality. He was all respectful of my self-talk of IAM GOD. Then he asked me the dreaded question.... - And do you believe in god? To which I answered -I don't know what god is, As it has always played a very elusive roll in my life, pretty much like my real father.
Ok - he said, let me show you how to talk to god, the way you'll get an answer for sure.
Wow, this is cool - I, thought.
He then said to get on my knees, open my hands in invoking position and begin to ask for whatever I need the most, first. That weekend I was very focused on releasing negativity, using the power of the Sagg full moon eclipse and a mono-diet of garlic soup with almost 60 cloves. So I prayed, I began feeling how I entered in trance, reaching very deep levels and beginning to feel as something changing. My body felt lighter, my mind clearer and a very strange sensation surrounded me. When I finished my friend just said: let me introduced you to god.

LoveAlways
xXx

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Graduation Day

There's a certain smell in the air. After the last week of very high excitements we begin to normalise. But I'm now going through more changes. I have no idea how I feel. I don't know if I'm in pain or not, if I feel strong or weak, if I'm hungry or not.... This is a very weird sensation as if I didn't know my own body.
Mini-aches like needles appear suddenly over my body and disappear fast.

Off now, my mind is in stand still. I'm going to quiet down.

xXx

Angel of Darkness - Master of Light

Has been over a month since my last post. This is because so much stuff has been going on and If I'd written every day, I probably wouldn't be where I am right now, wasting time trying to understand. But understanding was not an option and therefore didn't know what to write.
YES, it's been quite mad for over a month or so, around the start of April, right after my last post I went into the darkest place I experienced in a very long time. It wasn't depression at de beginning but soon turned into that. In reality what was happening was a very intense questioning. The type of thinking that brought me to this here and now and has form part of my life always. Why, why, why...

WHY NOT
Imagine to question the very foundations of your system belief all the time. That is hell. That means that when you think you are starting to build some structure and believe in whatever, some naughty part of me comes forward and destroys everything, and I mean everything, total collapse in the presence of the evil light as we point to it. The main question in my mind was, -What's real? and from there all the other questions appeared. Am I real? my feelings, my life? is my love real?... that last one shacked me to the core.
Let me make the remark that I wasn't trying to solve the all the questions of the Universe in one week. No way, my mind couldn't care less. This questioning comes from far beyond my mind and it's not happy until theres some kind of answer that makes me feel good. Now, the 'feeling good' part wasn't  under my control, it came as easily as it went away. My body ached all over to very painful levels one day and felt strong, full of energy the next. For weeks I went into nothingness but it wasn't too bad, Yes, very scary since I had not one single answer to my questions but I was feeling more at home, I wasn't dying. However, in my now very extensive and powerful experience in these sort of situations, I didn't feel that much fear, depression or desperation and let the 'whatever was going on' to run its course. The initial feeling of lost of faith drown me down to the lowest of emotional balance... but in this case I was very well prepared and came out of it quick and stronger.

REMEMBER LOVE IS ONLY REAL
This was and still is my only 'out of jail' card. When things started to go very dark and questions were born as dragons with multitude of faces, the only way I could defeat this enemy was to love it. So after few weeks,... (I know, we're talking weeks here.) of painful darkness, I used my weapon of choice, that is my love. Went back to my people and give them all I am and that brought me out of the hole I found myself in.

RAINBOW AFTER THE STORM
I knew the episode was only the backstage to a different level. Darkness never comes just for fun, it comes with a lesson and the opportunity to grow and this time wasn't different. I was learning my lessons and that made it less painful... healing started to happen in miracle ways and my new sense of identity began to grow fast and strong.
With every session I had, with every person I met I began to realise and become aware of a certain energy that wasn't there before this last time of darkness. Deep knowledge and wisdom started to show up in ways that amazed myself. "Oh you have read this" or "Its amazing how you can talk about this when I have to studied for year" I hear this type of affirmations all the time now and I know that they have nothing to de with information in my brain but to a connection of higher vibrations. It's like having connected to another kind of internet... a spiritual one. And like with the other internet, this one also have all the answers. Cool innit? :)

SURRENDERING THE DREAM
At some point about 3 weeks ago, at the beginning of May, I had a very powerful sensation of ' This is it" I felt I had reached my peak, i was very aware of many things, people were noticing and obtaining benefits from it. The light was stronger than ever and the connection intense and powerful. However, for some reason I felt alone, castaway by my own dreams and desires. Very few people could really understand the massive duality that my world is, the intense challenges that One has to overcome to enjoy seconds of light and peace, the beauty of it that creates and destroys at the same time. One can be the happiest and at the same time feel the saddest hole inside your chest. Feels like rebirth in the time of death.
At some point I didn't care anymore. Even thou I thought that by reaching this levels of awareness would create instant happiness and would keep the demons at bay, I came to accept the fact that in reality we come to live with both Light and Darkness at the same time. We become integrated in both vibrations without riding only one wave but all of them at the same time. and that was cool enough to be grateful.

I HAVE NO TIME
What about that???? This another of the tricks of the new awareness that has surpassed my craziest expectations. Time is now only a tiny concept that shrink and stretches but not longer the drives my destiny and life. I'm still getting the grips of it and the magic of synchronicity but I can say by now the powers and possibilities are amazing as I discover them. Watching people running at different speeds, with their faces full of lost time, worrying and stressing over beliefs that don't serve them is like watching a movie from another planet or dimension. One wishes we could do something about it, probably say, hey... that's not the way, let me show you something very cool is gonna hurt but you'll love it,  but now I don't do that very often. They feel I'm taking the mickey, my intention is to hurt or that Im crazy... and Ain't nobody got time for that ;)

BIG SURPRISE
What came through very strongly too was an empowering feeling of IAM. I can't still fully describe in words what this mean. I heard of it many times, I been getting glimpse of it for few years now. But never truly experienced its power. Simple and yet complicated, this was the greatest reward to the trust and honouring of feelings. A certain magnificence that changes everything.... all over again :) And so we start again.
- INTO THE LUMINANCE OF DARKNESS I DIVE DEEP ONCE AGAIN GUIDED ONLY BY THE POWER OF MY LIGHT -

God bless you always
LoveAlways
xXx


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Am I ready or too damaged?

In the glory that I've always dreamt living never occurred to me that one dream could change my life so much in the course of one night.
I'm not talking about dreams of grandiosity, money or love that we built over time but about the dreams lived while we sleep, hardly remembering them when we wake up and completely forgotten in seconds. The dream of another dimension where all is harmony like music, a great symphony being played only in our mind, however chaotic or fantastic it may sound.

I had a dream of amazing powers working as a postman delivering a message of astonishing precision, the moment of truth so many of us are waiting for. The confirmation of a marriage between worlds along with the understanding of our own. However, before the final word is delivered a signature of consent must be provided as a contract in agreement, the final step to receive what we've been so afraid of taking.

The message was an invitation to come aboard, a gala of universal proportions, a feast to the mind and soul. But as to all other special events, one must prepare in advance. One can not arrive in a beggars cloths to a ball of abundance and pride.

What to take this time; for skills, precious stones and wallets of gold are not required, only the shine of a pure heart will serve as the key to open the gates of the wonderful gift already waiting for its owner to be claimed.
And I questioned myself. Have I that shine, am I worth it or have I shrunk in shame and fear after years of walking in darkness and pain. Would I be willing to miss my place in the great celebrations all because of tears, feelings of unworthiness and laziness? Of course not, thou it hasn't been easy to crack down the fragile shell I constructed around myself in the hope of peace and security.
Like a chick making tiny crack into its eggshell struggling to get the first drop of air that will save her from certain death.

Now, there's no time to waste as we brake free from that that created us, the time of transformation and maturity it's now done, finished and we need to open our wings and fly with the wind. Only then, we can enjoy the fruits that allow us to travel to greater horizons.

Sunday the 7th April 2013, came with a great message surrounded by pain as a reality check.
We look forward to our present and we Thank you for our future.

LoveAlways
xXx


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Posts on the 4th in April days

11. Night fallen on the lap and dreams are crawling loud and bright. Let this day go down in bane and my love to live forever beyond the pain.THANK YOU ALL for your unconditional love,
Four ever elements are untwined with our hearts united joining might n'might xXx

10. All my words are original works which mock the quotes of your ridiculous world xXx

9. From all the juices of this world I love yours above them all xXx

8. Most people live as others thoughts winning over figures that shake them out of joy xXx

7. IAM THE LIGHT WHIVCH LIVES AT NIGHT xXx

6. FUCK YOU, you are doomed.You have hurt us for too long and there is no way you can now mend our pain.
To the fire of my rage I push you to your death and there's no mercy for IAM them xXx

5. I'm not only in your face book, iAM also in your dreams 3:33. Every night I kiss you on the day of your rebirth xXx

4. My flesh smells of young blood running through my veins. Your youth is my doom and in your chest I plunge my pray xXx

3. I bless organic and free range 333 xXx

2. This is the blood of your Christ 33.3 xXx

1. Can you feel the winter in your bones? That's the unbalance of you all.
You're too fearful of the unknown and bringing sorrow with a storm.
Let it all be done and loose the shaking from the core.
You has the power of the gods, please keep us warm in your explode xXx

LoveAlways

xXx

A letter to Myself

To You who speak of LIGHT but still live in DARKNESS...
To You who speak of TRUTH but know nothing but LIES...
To You who speak of LIFE in the journey of your DEATH.

We were born out of Darkness and our Light it's only joy, with the comfort of your knowing our Truth as the only god.

Who cares of your beliefs if you don't truly believe them yourself. Better love your unbelieving for that will taste the sweetness of your breath. Wanting to believe is not the same as knowing you believe, to know One must experience first. Without experience there's only doubt in faith and for faith to exist needs always a Mind in the mist. Take this humble current of love that comes and goes with the wind, catch your breath and start all over again.

LoveAlways
xXx

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Lonely words

There are words in a diary that are meant as a private container for laughs and tears, in contrast there are others which serve as a treasure map to somebody's heart.
The first kind is guarded with pride and against all intruders, the other is left alone lying around hoping someone will pick it up and learn all its secrets.

I never knew one of the first kind. All my words have been left floating over the winds of time in the hope that one day will land on fertile ground turning darkness into smiles.
What would the people say after I'm gone? Many will say nothing, others will say too much, but as I've leant to say, 'God will say it all'.
Was I someone who cared for others more than me? Of course not. Did I care for me more than others? Completely wrong too. Did I care for anything or anyone at all? I only cared for one single thing and that was love. A love that I never understood or felt but knew that it undoubtedly existed and made part of all. An illusion of joy, health and youth which travels the oceans as whales in command of the Seven Seas. Yes, I cared for something but I never trusted 'that something' cared for me for it kept eluding me like a fish avoiding the net. Was I the net or the fish? That I will never know, for sometimes I loved to swim free but others I longed to be caught in love.

To whom to cry my tears if there's no one to hear? To the Wind which takes them to the sky and makes them disappear. To the Water who wash its sorrows and makes them rain over again or to the Fire which burns in love all that once was and no longer is or to the Earth, going back to heaven in return of gold.

Words that no one will read, words that no one will care. Sing a song of sorrow, sing my song of joy. As others protect their privacy, I offer mine in whole to all the public elements of this planet to use my love as children's toy.

To the day of death a stone will read, 'I did not know him well but I love to read his tales'

LoveAlways
xXx

Life is just not all that

Just imagine what kind of mind would accept a statement like the title of this post. If life seams not to be all that we expect its simply because we are expecting something different, even thou unwanted.
This creates a new round of events that supports your ideas about yourself, however real, beneficial or practical they may be. Lets imagine that you've been trying to heal yourself for few years now and you actually have succeeded beautifully in this task, since transforming your body has been the only thing in your mind for so long, having nothing to heal or complain about creates a void for the mind is not used to this new condition. Here, either a new condition is created to support your need to constantly heal yourself or learn new tricks to support your real needs of love, happiness and abundance.

This sounds like a job for a therapist but lets imagine for a second we have the capacity to transform ourselves like a butterfly without others needing to help us change into the beauty we know we already are. Maybe you are doing that and life is taking new colours but as the process that it is, it takes time.

So, what now? KEEP THE FAITH, look forward, focus on the love and the light you so much desire for your life. Now we heal the mind and the spirit. Having been battered and abused left its emotional scars but you are in the way out. You've learnt your lesson and now it's time to move on. Just remember to focus on what you want and you'll soon see how life is ALL THAT :)

LoveAlways
xXx

April's Fool

Wake up several times during the night. The dreaming so intense and in a way, so well calibrated that felt so much like a reality.
I was with my older brother and we were both trying to deal with the new reality of being enlightened. Not in any sense of religious divinity but instead in a very practical way in understanding in the laws of the universe, the ones we already knew and new ones becoming accessible to us.

You would've imagine this to be a very exciting and happy moment and it was, if it weren't for a person who seemed to be very distraught by this and were after us un a rampage of anger and violence.
We were inside of some sort of theatre where a movie was going to be played, more than just a recreational film it felt like instructions for the new life ahead. Very futuristic tapping into different dimensions but that wasn't too intense as we (my brother and I) were trying to keep safe from the angry man who looked actually very decent, handsome, well built with his blond and blue eyes. But very scared, as if he were trying to stop the process.

This became a scene of sci-fi thriller running from room to room inside the now space ship or something with lots of tubes, buttons and machines programmed with tasks. The pressure ended when I get inside of a car and started the car, I remember a part of my primitive mind, angry and frighten wanted go run the man over but in a move from my now enlightened mind made the very intelligent move to just trap him between the wall and the car with a masterful move that I knew was part of the new mind.

We managed to talk to the blond man and sort of making him see things differently. More of my family were arriving, this time my mother and her partner and we lined up to see that film and whatever we needed to learn from it. Oh wonderful surprise when this kind of OZ starts sharing information. I'm not sure if we were all told the same thing or if different information was been accessed by different people.

I suddenly started to understand the process of healing and pain. I had a very clear understanding how the healing process works as a helix, that means if one wants to heal the left arm if someone, one has to focus the healing energy through the right arm. Everything was about finding balance between the extremes. If we are dialling with insomnia we should focus on the attitude and intention when we are awake. If we are experiencing pain in some part of the body we should focus the attention to the other side when there's no pain. This would cancel the effects of dis-ease but even though this feels too simple and even ridiculous remember that we were talking already at another level of understanding where healing is all done through the power of thought and intentionality. As if we, just by seeing things differently could change the reality inside our bodies and the bodies of other people.

I kept walking up from this dream in some kind of integration to my reality. Then falling asleep again and continuing the lecture or teaching were we left. This happened 2-3 times, maybe more and it all made perfect sense.

Looked around and everyone else was in the same state of wonder and owe as if we had been revealed a great secret but a different one each. We felt very close and without words communicating the feelings to each other. It definitely felt like the beginning of something great.

When I fully woke up again I felt as if I had and accident, all my body aches and I have a very sharp feeling of exhaustion. There's a pain that comes and goes from my throat and there's is a very eery feeling in the atmosphere. All very quiet and there's no much light from the new day outside. I just listening a vibration inside my ears which makes everything feel like a dream. This is happening on London, UK at 9:33am on the 1st of April, 2013.

xXx

The devil's game

A few days a go I got into a conversation with a friend about good and evil. Not really discussing the traumas caused or suffered by an evil mind but the reason for its existence which in my understanding it doesn't exist at all, evil it's simply the absence of godness. Regardless of my beliefs I agree with the fact that we create more damage by guilt or remorse than by any real wrong doing or bad being.

When we choose to blame the pleasure that we've enjoyed and either feel guilty for what we were capable of doing in order to achieve that pleasure or the fact that we enjoyed it so much that made us think of no one else but us. Anyhow, is in the mind that someone or something turns evil or good as in reality there's nothing that makes it so. It simply is, but that doesn't stop us from creating feelings that doesn't serve our higher purpose.

My friend said "By giving away what the devils gives one can beat him at his game and enjoy without guilt" In this concept we can embrace everything that gives us pleasure in the knowing that sharing that pleasure will give so much pleasure to someone else. The guilt disappears and acceptance becomes the rule.

Next time you enjoy doing something make sure you share your pleasure.
xXx

Healing to be healed

Yesterday, at the end of one week of conscious building the constructive will for the next stage of life, I choose to visit a group of very special kids. The theme of the day was 'taking care of others' but in my mind and heart there was a big issue about healing. I felt a very strong force certain to be used as the assistant in the healing process with these kids. I didn't know any of them previously and had no idea what kind of 'special needs' I was going to encounter.

First impression was a beautiful reception from the group, the soul who invited me introduced me to everyone one by one, personal touch and coming closer to all of them. From that first contact I felt the need to give them love, but in much deeper and meaningful way, healing love. I'm very respectful of personal space and I noticed the need from the social workers to teach this lesson to the group of teens in that room, but I couldn't just keep the distance and I felt the need to come closer and place my hands on shoulders, or heads. I felt immediately this current of energy, light running through my hands into them, like opening a door between us allowing the flow of life to run free.
I had immediate response from them, they came closer and closer and then I began to feel their love and that was the most amazing and beautiful experience ever.

They are like fountains of love waiting to be allowed to share their bounty with you and once they are, the bounty of love runs in abundance. I was been touched by angels without demonic egos that builds walls between people. There was a very powerful communication between us but in very special ways. Not with words or signs. The subtle communication happened through the soul and depending on their own special ability, made it come across the universe to touch with love the lives of all those willing to receive it. Healing did happen yesterday but if I managed to offer any sense of peace, I got instead millions millions more in pure joy, love and light.

I thought I had tuned into the healing powers of others and my ego believed I was going to heal them. What a lesson learnt. I now give THANKS GOD for the existence of this beings that work as beckons of light, healing everything and everyone they touch with their love, and they only ask for a little compassion and care in return. Isn't that wonderful?

I'm so grateful with this kids and I pray for the opportunity to be close to them once again. They are my blessings to the world in pain. I am the healer and they are pure health.

With love
LoveAlways
xXx

To my friends

I'm so happy and glad to see so many of my friends and colleagues traveling the world passing on the teaching from their respecting teachers and gurus. I can't deny a certain feeling of being left behind that makes me wonder that I want that too. My heart longs to travel the world and visit so many places, meeting so many people and I know that if I had applied myself and learn a technique already in place it would make so much easier to do so. But I have a better consolation price and that is that I'm bringing out that mastery out of discovering who I am. I'm not learning from other who I'm meant to be by taking courses or getting together with other people mix matching abilities, teachings and knowledge, and I don't mean to say I judge or diminish their efforts. I believe if in anybody's soul path is that what feels right, then by the grace of god do it. I'm sure the feeling of fulfilment most be amazing. However, in my case, I've been presented by myself with the opportunity to discover and explore the experience and wisdom I've been gathering across many lifetimes and this is a very strange feeling of self-sufficiency which at the same time has become the greatest challenge of all.
Imagine knowing only by a very subtle whisper in your heart that you know already something very powerful that has the strength to transform not only your life but the lives of all that come close to you but the way you start to glimpse into this power is by creating the disasters in life that will need those powers to come out to balance and cancel the darkness of those disasters.

Anyway, in a process of loving, learning and failing we found ourselves now believing in the wisdom within much more than the wisdom without. I'm remembering what I already know by being the way it feels right inside, applying the knowledge that feels natural and following the caresses of intuition that in some way now form part of me like never before. For many this ability has come easy in life, for me I needed to forget first all the fear and limitations of being different and unique.

One day I will travel the world, I could start today, tomorrow or next week but even if its next month (as I'm in not rush) it would be when I'm fully prepared to share all that I am, fully convinced and I feel this is the real challenge... Fully convinced that what I am is of great benefit to others and that by sharing my light I help many night to see a bright new day.

This is what fills my heart with hope when I see others are already doing what I'm about to try for myself.
I feel ready, so lets do it :)
xXx

How to take care of myslef

Today I had one single thing to achieve in a week of mini-accomplishments. I simply needed to do at least one thing that would make a difference in the way I take care of myself.
Instead, I took care of others, I was cold, lonely, hungry and sad, even more when realised I couldn't even think of one tiny little thing that would truly make a difference to myself. Only a hint in the way of a smile and sweet look from the cashier, a stranger in the breakfast place where I had everything normally I would never have. Coffee, bacon and sausages, a proper english breakfast was what I thought I needed this morning after a freezing start of the day working around town, But was that simple look right into my eyes from a stranger and an honest smile what warmed my heart from the inside out. But paid no much attention, kind of enjoyed the moment and walk away as I do in most cases. I went there to receive some goods and leave my money in return. Mechanical and totally detached. I could've had the love of my life right in front my eyes and I wouldn't notice or react to it. How sad is that?
The day was freezing and I couldn't find a way to warm up. The journey back home was not long enough to build up heat within my body inside the train and I only thought about running back to my cave. But as soon as I arrived and felt the loneliness of my space, called for a pizza and got again something I don't even enjoy like a peperoni pizza, that's when it hit me... I don't know how to give to myself what I really need and enjoy and that is a very sad realisation but even in its saddest, it also gives me hope to start finding out how to truly give to myself what I really want and need.

Today was part of a program building up in constructive will and I thought for a moment I had completely failed my task, but in not achieving I found a reason to succeed. I will now take as my first priority to give to myself what truly makes me happy, to discover what tickles my joy and fills me with love. I want to learn to love myself, I want to feel that I have achieved the greatest price in life, I want to feel alive. So what was supposed to last one single day, will now last at least one week if not one full lifetime in learning How to take care of Myself.
xXx

Knowing who you are

Who am I? A question so many times asked that the relevance of its importance almost escape us. Now, in a world where everyone is trying to find their own individuality marking or piercing the body in ways beyond recognition or beauty right into a system of a painful reminders that at the ends answers the question with a continues 'I don't know'. And I say answer the question because we have learned to accept this reality as an answer, why? simply because trying to discover the real answer may take us into even more painful episodes of our life, more painful that not knowing we we are. Life right now only demands that you know what to do, learn from others how to behave and acquire a new personality while making sure you build around that personality as much as possible.

Difficulties, doubts, lost, that is the path to self-discovery but if you make it to the other side, if you endure the hardness of this process you will find yourself in a place of glory beyond anything you ever imagined for you will have discovered yourself, your path, your destiny.
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Let's Play the Gay Games. GLADIATORS READY?

So you know what to do and if you're clever and resolved enough you always do it. However, does that guarantee any results? of course, may not be the results you expect but definitely something will happen as a result of the action taken.
Now, what's next? Many will continue doing whatever they can, at any level to obtain the expected outcome in an automatic and almost out of control set of events, actions, thoughts and words. Always trying to convince themselves that they are making things happen. Thou, many times is the opposite. Nothing happens or just when it's about to happen something changes and the opportunity slips between the fingers and it's gone forever.
Ok I agree, is not always bad news. Many times people do get what they work so hard for and that is the price to pay, a lot of hard work. leaving people exhausted and energy depleted. As we can see in our current society,  we hardly have any time for anything else than work to provide us with the comfort and success we think we want and once we get our desires, we realise we now want something else and we jump into the wagon and start all over again. No time for quality time with the family or to create of ourselves the pieces of art we always dreamt becoming.

What's wrong with that? Nothing is wrong. It's simply too primitive and boring. Imagine yourself playing tenis where your opponent is a pole sticked in the middle of the court instead of a player and you are aiming to hit that pole hoping that the ball will bounce in it and come back to you to continue playing without interruptions. Now you tell me, how stupid is that? I'm sure many times the ball will bounce back but just think how many times it won't. So the game has to be interrupted, pick up the ball and try again, and again, and again.
The build up will never get anywhere close to the powerful and interesting (not to say fun and exciting) possibilities available for you. But how to achieve that?

TRUST is the name of the game. Yes, that is all. But I hear you saying, 'but trust what?'
So far you trust your mind in doing what everyone else is doing which is hard work, believing in the process and the system that needs your labor. You trust your abilities and knowledge acquired over the years in countless hours eating books and listening to lectures. You also trust your intelligence  however limited it might be. And you also trust what you've been told to believe as everybody else does the same. Everybody struggles, everybody hurts. Isn't that right? Well not everybody and definitely not all the time.
There is a new team captain playing The Game. Not really new as its has been around all this time but until very recently people started noticing it. This is the well known power of the Universe. Oh yes indeed, that is the jock that is making everyone drool over its presence and power. Just like the popular quarterback in high school who knew all the moves and the ways to make things happen in the most amazing and cool way.

So what's next... yet again? Well, it's very important to allow this player to take it's place and for us to choose to play the game with it.
How? By taking turns, like a beautiful gay relationship. One takes it first and then the other makes its move. That makes us versatile, both giving and both receiving and definitely both very happy and satisfied.
STEP ONE: Send your intention and wait for the return. However, is very important that you are choosing to play with the Universe in full or not at all. It's not like you can use it only when it pleases you and send it away when is not. That is how rotten children behave, manipulative and annoying. No, if you take the challenge then you respect the rules and play it until the end. Sometimes it hurts but only at the beginning, then it's only pleasure and fun :)

STEP TWO: How to make sure you are playing the game correctly? Well, in reality there's no right or wrong but what you really need to focus on it's on the guidance you're following or acting upon.
Answer these questions next time you're about to start a new project (game).

1. Is this what you really want?
2. Was this project born in your mind or in your heart?
3. Have you allow the Universe to play back?
4. What kind of non-action have you taken to allow the Universe response to manifest?
5. Does your move and project feels right inside your heart?
6. Who is the primary beneficiary of this project?
7. What is what you love the most about this project.

NOTE: The most important question is number 4. What kind of non-action have you taken to allow the Universe response to manifest? So now, that you understand a little bit better the new rules of the game, go and play gay.

STEP THREE: Have fun and enjoy the match.

Please feel free to contact me for more information and different ways to train yourself, your mind and your body in order to upgrade your serve.

God bless you and remember: You are already a winner so stop playing the roll of the looser.

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