Again, start all over again?

I know exactly what to do next, I just have to start all over again. I've done it many times and I'm great starting things up. I know that whatever I choose will be a success and that it will be beautiful. However, I've started so many things for so long and many of those things lost in the mud that I'm not that excited about new projects. It's like "whatever" not even the memories of long awaited paradises spark the excitement inside my heart.
Yes, I know it feels good to start something but I can't believe this time is the good one, is not like that. I just don't care anymore to get up in the morning to create a beautiful brand new day. The sun through my window does not inspire the dream of a happy day, food has become a chore instead of pleasure and I have to trust that things will get better somehow. Simply because if they don't get better, they probably get worse which we don't want but certainly we don't care.

Somehow we have to find the inspiration out of somewhere to get back on the train and continue our journey.

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