Testing testing 123...
This is not a drill, please go to your nearest healing point.
Testing how strong everything and everyone is has been something I've been doing naturally since I can remember. People got tested for their love, strength and resilience to stay put. Very few passed the test finding myself all alone and empty handed many times. Making people angry while throwing away great opportunities for not been able to cope with the stress I put on. This beehaviour did not only applied to others or other situations, It applied mainly to myself. I've been testing how strong I am for as long as I can remember. Not doing something because it wasn't safe wasn't reason enough not to do it, in contrast was precisely the driving force to made me dive into the unknown with even more reason. I say "Want me to do something, tell me not to do it"... Sounds familiar? We all know how that feels, don't we? ;)
I couldn't understand at first why I was driven to such dangerous levels beyond the point where the majority of people would dare to go, putting my happiness, sanity and life at risk. My brother pointed at me many times the self-destructive attitude towards my life and everything that surrounded me, making almost impossible to reach the security and peace I was looking for.
I kept pushing and pushing myself to the point of throwing away the life and everything I had but why did I do that? what reason could possibly exist? I knew deep within that the destructive behaviour wasn't about an end but a beginning but couldn't understand anything else. Many times I honestly believed I was the rotten apple of the lot. Something really wrong and evil lived inside of me and the only way to put an end to it was to exterminate it, to kill it, and so, I tried many times to kill myself in unconscious attempts that somehow did not scare me, as if I knew that I'd survive somehow and if I didn't not much was lost. However, a part of me knew best and kept regenerating over and over, It didn't matter how hard I stretched my chances I would hold strong and get stronger as I reached my weakest link. This sparked my Faith... in myself and therefore in society and this world. If I can heal myself, everyone can and not only because all the things we could do to achieve balance, that helps but because of what WE ARE. WE HEAL. Doing healthy things creates logic in our mind and therefore expect results. But what if you believed you could heal regardless of what you do? What would anybody do with that power? Love? hate? create or destroy? It's all possible, why not?
I believe we are beings of light and therefore is in our nature to love each other and oneself. However, how do we test our love, how would anybody know what our love is capable of?
Healing is one of the main abilities of all things in life, don't believe me, just look around and see how powerful we become after each disaster that tests our abilities to heal in the collective as well as individually. Though I believe there are many others with different strengths and weaknesses. Reason why we need to come together and teach each other what we can do, learn and listen from one another is the best and easiest way to beecome fully integrated and complete. I'd love to learn about what you can do, if you still don't know, let me show you what I've discovered about US.
- How to remember something we don't know we know? WE TEST to see what might be there.
- How would anybody understand what we are really made of? WE TRUST there's more.
- How can we reveal our own truth? WE SHARE and that's exactly what we are doing here.
Can you see the light?
- www.iBEEcome.com
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