6.5.12 What do YOU really want???

What is more important to you, your own happiness or the happiness of others? 

If to me my happiness is more important, how come I know more about what makes others happy instead of what makes me happy?

Today I woke up trying to digest what is this concept of 'compromising or transigency' all about.

How much do we really know and declare what we want and what we don't want? How clear is it in our mind and hearts?

I, in my case, am not that sure of anything anymore. Today I've tried hard to understand my own feelings and took the time to ask myself constantly what do I really want.

All this came about because of the ever expanding way to see my own universe. Today for example, I taught my first yoga class at Morefit with only one student (which I'm very grateful for) but it made me realised how important it is for me to offer my services to a wider audience. Yesterday, I decided to teach this class for free, to open opportunities to attract more people and invite them to experience a new way of thinking, in reality what my classes are all about.

During the day I kept repeating to myself how by offering this class free I would be doing 'Seva' or selfless service to the world. But it's really a selfless service or just a way to compromise in order to obtain certain result or benefit?

I cannot deny that I'd love to see my class full and to inspire change in many minds. Neither can I deny the possibility of selling my Coaching and other services among the students. But is that what I really want? If I take away the need for money I would still offer offer my class for free and still charge for my other services, so I think what I really desire is to see my class full and make a difference in people's heart and mind. Regardless of what I get out of it... Well, that's now a bit clearer :)

Then, I got invited for dinner and a night out clubbing. At the beginning said yes more to avoid explanations than expressing my desires.

I knew that at the moment I have other priorities for the money I've got instead of going for dinner and clubbing, but then I got invited (all paid for) and again I said yes for the same reasons of avoiding confrontations. Was until the time to leave got closer when I realised that I didn't want to go for very different reasons. Even thou I love the group of people who invited me I have nothing in common with them. I'd be around drinks and intoxicating environments that doesn't really attract me anymore and third, I didn't want to be paid to come along. I don't sell my company anymore and I now choose with who I want to go out and who I don't.

It feels pretty good to know what One really wants and makes better decision-taking to also know what are we willing to compromise.

Learning about myself makes me better person, as for my feelings, I thank Archangel Chamuel for the assistance in finding clarity about understanding them.

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