Today I started feeling the next coming challenge in my life is about to arrive. I need to be out David's house by the end of the month and I have no where to go. I have no money left and I right now I just want to cry.
People/friends advice me to use the system asking for housing benefits by saying that I'm homeless and dying of aids.... Excuse me! Who are these people who to dare to advice something like that to anyone. Dying or not, that's not the point. The point is, if anyone feels that the only way to get some help is by focusing on the weaknesses so people feel sorry for them then I'm not sure what I want, to be helped or not.
I'm not prepare to focus on my weaknesses ever, not because of ego or pride but because I choose to focus on my strength and if someone is going to help me is because they believe in my capacity to survive, create new possibilities out of nothing and admire my resilience to always keep getting back up... Someone who would admire the efforts but if that someone does not come forward that means to me that I'm stronger and another way will present and things will happen anyway.
In the meantime, I keep doing my best, loving my best, accepting my best and that is good enough.
FOR FUCK SAKE!
Enough is Enough
xXx
Eduardo,
ReplyDeleteI came upon your feeling randomly on the website We Feel Fine.
You keep doing your best. Whatever that means to you. Live and learn.
Our best comes out when we are thrown (metaphorically) against the wall. Don't forget that! Embrace it!
I wish you all the luck in the world and peace from within to you my friend.
Thanks for sharing your feelings with the world.
Jeff from Chicago for another 13 days.