4.5.12 Some things are meant die

Every day a new vision, every day a new lesson and today was no different. Even from very early in the morning I felt 'something' different. Truly, I had no idea what it was, but it felt like a new level of understanding being unfold in front of me, although right now, it feels like I'm using the trial mode of a new program.

Recently, I've been feeling a very strange sensation of sadness but in a much much deeper way. It feels like if I'm realising that some "things" are meant to die and there's nothing we can do about it. Acceptance of death, embracement of the end? I don't know, and I don't mean to sound as tragic as it feels... but relationships end, business collapse, people die. But in reality people die every day and still breathe and walk on the streets. We live in a world of the living dead.

I believe that, when we don't live our lives to the maximum some part of us imminently dies. That part that doesn't expand along with the rest of the universe simply contracts and dies. The mind that can't keep up with the evolutionary process of awakening and expansion simply stays behind and begins to wither away, and when that happens is like seeing a man jumping out of a bridge to his death while we just watch the scene from afar. - There's nothing we can do to stop the man from jumping, and yet, we can't deny in some very strange and powerful way the responsibility we feel for his death. as if a part of us has also died with him.

I've had a suppressed cry within my chest for the last few days. Not knowing what it was I pretended nothing happened. Today, I've got the first tiny glimpse of what's coming our way and makes me sad not be able to do more for whomever is out there in the dark and cold side of the road.

I do wish so much happiness, love and abundance to everyone, and live my life in the service of others, but I also know that in so many lives out there, there's only sadness, hate, anger, hunger, illness, poverty and frustration. Even when there's a glimpse of light, the focus many times stays on the darker corner of our mind. Few have the ability to adapt to the light. And that feels sad, empty and quite scary, even if you tell people; -Look, there's light over here! They ignore you and keep pointing with fear to what they don't know, hurt and can't understand; blind, deaf and stubborn.

With this sadness and love I accept my incapacity to save them from their pain. I wish to banish their suffering with a flick of a finger or a kiss, but in their own ignorance and insanity they shall drown.
Yes, I feel their pain. I do, and a lot but with many men I'm simply unable to share the light that for whatever reason they try so hard to ignore.

And so, I say good bye blue sky... I wish you well and I know I will see you again very soon. And like I said before: Stop crying because your dying, better start laughing because you're buying it.

Ta ta
LoveAlways
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