We could say nothing really interesting happened but that would be a massive LIE! As everything happened to make it an amazing, magic day.
I woke up with pain, yes my bum kept hurting with such intensity that I hardly managed to stay alive without passing out because of sudden but very intense needle-like pain. I started taking pain killers last night but obviously it didn't make things better, actually it made them worse. The more I tried to make the pain disappear the more it hurt.
My skin reacted badly to any chemicals, medicines or creams even thou with the anaesthetic sooth the pain a little but only temporarily, then it got worse secreting some kind of liquid making things just burn into a fire of terrible pain and discomfort.
With all this I still managed to go to work and pretend nothing happened. Since very little I became very powerful controlling pain an ability that came useful today as I was training people at The Gym, cleaning equipment, and teaching yoga.
By the end of my shift I could hardly walk but I kept smiling, inspiring and inviting people to join me and my workshops.
Walking back home, a small walk of 15mins felt like a marathon, my energy levels dropped as I tried to control the pain and keep going. I was sweating and praying so intensely asking my angels for assistance, Father God for forgiveness, the Cosmos for a sign, my body for a miracle.
In moments the pain disappeared and I managed to regain some composure and energy but few steps ahead a pin-like pain went straight through my first chakra up to my column and out though my crown chakra.
Got home, just. Didn't know what to do so I did everything I could. Washed the area, put creams and took pain killers. This made life a bit easier while I prepared my lunch.
Then off to healing nap. I had programmed to visit Alchemy the Centre to promote the Sun-day Workshop of Ascension but I needed to rest.
I felt asleep so deep and two hours later I still couldn't wake up. Dreams of fights and challenges kept waking me up just enough to have a look on the clock and go back to sleep. Every time i woke up felt the pain became stronger and stronger until the point of not being able to sleep again.
Decided I couldn't just keep ignoring the pain or trying to numb it into submission. So I did what any awaken being would do and that is to use all the spiritual powers available to decree change and a bit of chocolate ice cream for the suffering soul :)
Called to the Universe and elevated Masters, asked for guidance and strength and I spiritually ended my pain.
A beautiful immediate connection I had standing in the middle of the living room, however as soon as I sat down to have my ice cream the pain made its presence once again. I didn't care and had my chocolate treat.
Realised I couldn't go to Alchemy, I could no longer pretend, not even for the sake of the workshop. So I stayed home and prepared myself for as-long-as-I-needed healing session.
Reiki, Oponopono, SatNam Rasayan, Presence Healing, Angel Healing, Visual Healing, Sensitive Healing, Emotional Healing, Cosmic Healing... EVERY SINGLE WAY OF HEALING I KNOW. Chanting mantras in deep meditation, loving, forgiving, feeling, realising, embracing, transcending, integrating and so much more played a part on this process. Moments of deep questioning and silence happened.
While slowly, I was been taken to a new understanding into action. I realised the pain came from deep within. A fire was been build into self extinction because of my unfounded need of belonging and doing my absolute best to prove myself worthy to the Universe.
Of course I realised I don't need to prove anything to the Universe, nor to me, nor to anyone. So without this 'need' I realised a new need to have fun and enjoyment. Began to wonder how to entertain myself but came to the realisation that I need nothing to make me happier. Being ME is the funniest, most entertaining thing I could possibly imagine. Yes, I could be more creative in ways that makes my blood run faster but right now I love what I'm doing and I just want to do it more.
Realised the pain was here to show me new ways to love myself with patience and tolerance. I also realised that when I don't see a way out is because I have to keep looking, not that there's no way out, and more importantly I realised for the very first time in my entire life how much I LOVE BEING ME JUST THE WAY I AM, with all the pains and difficulties, problems and challenges. There's nothing I want to do than create my life as I always dreamed. Creating miracles, moving mountains, healing pain, ascending and transcending limitations.
Next stop Madrid, Ascending Among Friends
With all the love
From the Cosmos and I,
Blessings & Light
xXx
PS: I almost forgot to mention. 3 hours later of intense deep healing and 2 full doses of Aloe Vera up my bum, the pain is completely GONE FOR EVER. Like it was never there in the first place. Isn't that a miracle? I'll tell you tomorrow xXx
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