30.5.12 Miracles anyone?

What about today? What about it?
We could say nothing really interesting happened but that would be a massive LIE! As everything happened to make it an amazing, magic day.

I woke up with pain, yes my bum kept hurting with such intensity that I hardly managed to stay alive without passing out because of sudden but very intense needle-like pain. I started taking pain killers last night but obviously it didn't make things better, actually it made them worse. The more I tried to make the pain disappear the more it hurt.
My skin reacted badly to any chemicals, medicines or creams even thou with the anaesthetic sooth the pain a little but only temporarily, then it got worse secreting some kind of liquid making things just burn into a fire of terrible pain and discomfort.

With all this I still managed to go to work and pretend nothing happened. Since very little I became very powerful controlling pain an ability that came useful today as I was training people at The Gym, cleaning equipment, and teaching yoga.
By the end of my shift I could hardly walk but I kept smiling, inspiring and inviting people to join me and my workshops.
Walking back home, a small walk of 15mins felt like a marathon, my energy levels dropped as I tried to control the pain and keep going. I was sweating and praying so intensely asking my angels for assistance, Father God for forgiveness, the Cosmos for a sign, my body for a miracle.

In moments the pain disappeared and I managed to regain some composure and energy but few steps ahead a pin-like pain went straight through my first chakra up to my column and out though my crown chakra.

Got home, just. Didn't know what to do so I did everything I could. Washed the area, put creams and took pain killers. This made life a bit easier while I prepared my lunch.
Then off to healing nap. I had programmed to visit Alchemy the Centre to promote the Sun-day Workshop of Ascension but I needed to rest.

I felt asleep so deep and two hours later I still couldn't wake up. Dreams of fights and challenges kept waking me up just enough to have a look on the clock and go back to sleep. Every time i woke up felt the pain became stronger and stronger until the point of not being able to sleep again.
Decided I couldn't just keep ignoring the pain or trying to numb it into submission. So I did what any awaken being would do and that is to use all the spiritual powers available to decree change and a bit of chocolate ice cream for the suffering soul :)

Called to the Universe and elevated Masters, asked for guidance and strength and I spiritually ended my pain.
A beautiful immediate connection I had standing in the middle of the living room, however as soon as I sat down to have my ice cream the pain made its presence once again. I didn't care and had my chocolate treat.

Realised I couldn't go to Alchemy, I could no longer pretend, not even for the sake of the workshop. So I stayed home and prepared myself for as-long-as-I-needed healing session.

Reiki, Oponopono, SatNam Rasayan, Presence Healing, Angel Healing, Visual Healing, Sensitive Healing, Emotional Healing, Cosmic Healing... EVERY SINGLE WAY OF HEALING I KNOW. Chanting mantras in deep meditation, loving, forgiving, feeling, realising, embracing, transcending, integrating and so much more played a part on this process. Moments of deep questioning and silence happened.

While slowly, I was been taken to a new understanding into action. I realised the pain came from deep within. A fire was been build into self extinction because of my unfounded need of belonging and doing my absolute best to prove myself worthy to the Universe.

Of course I realised I don't need to prove anything to the Universe, nor to me, nor to anyone. So without this 'need' I realised a new need to have fun and enjoyment. Began to wonder how to entertain myself but came to the realisation that I need nothing to make me happier. Being ME is the funniest, most entertaining thing I could possibly imagine. Yes, I could be more creative in ways that makes my blood run faster but right now I love what I'm doing and I just want to do it more.

Realised the pain was here to show me new ways to love myself with patience and tolerance. I also realised that when I don't see a way out is because I have to keep looking, not that there's no way out, and more importantly I realised for the very first time in my entire life how much I LOVE BEING ME JUST THE WAY I AM, with all the pains and difficulties, problems and challenges. There's nothing I want to do than create my life as I always dreamed. Creating miracles, moving mountains, healing pain, ascending and transcending limitations.

Next stop Madrid, Ascending Among Friends

With all the love
From the Cosmos and I,
Blessings & Light
xXx

PS: I almost forgot to mention. 3 hours later of intense deep healing and 2 full doses of Aloe Vera up my bum, the pain is completely GONE FOR EVER. Like it was never there in the first place. Isn't that a miracle? I'll tell you tomorrow xXx

29.5.12 Total Divine Support

I can't complain about absolutely nothing, not even the pain in my bum which some times quite unbearable, not the feeling tired or overwhelm by my new life and responsibilities. Actually I have so much to be grateful for, that I can't think of anything not to be grateful for. Mmmmm funy hehe ;)

Things are turning fantastically. I went today to Alchemy to pick up the flyers for my workshop, stayed around for a couple of hours and manage to chat with some people there. It truly amazes me the level of spiritual understanding that come from Source through me when talking to someone. Is like I just need to disattach from drama of mind ego and divine wisdom flows into action. Is quite remarkable really.

Obviously this makes me feel secure and guided which is a wonderful feeling to someone who always experienced insecurity, loneliness and fear. I can feel things are starting to shift big time within myself. A true sense of leadership and duty to my people. I can't think of anything else to do with my life besides putting all my energy in promoting awareness and expanded consciousness.

I felt the whole day today very blessed with signs from the Angels and Universe. Emails like:

On this day of your life, Eduardo, I believe God wants you to know...
...that your inner goodness is going to carry the day.

I know that you know what a good person you are.
Yes, we all make mistakes, but when everything is said and done, you are a genuinely good person...and you
know it.

So here's what you should be told: God knows it, too.
Trust that your inner goodness will rule this moment...

... And I did and the day went beautifully. So off to sleep now as tomorrow will be another great day.

PS: I got my very first fitness client and she blessed me with £330 + £11.22. As I received this money online I ask my angels and Universe to bless her hands with abundance, prosperity and love. May these training session be the trigger of great happiness, fitness and awareness. SatNam.

LoveAlways
xXx

28.5.12 Ready, Steady, GO

One week, seven days to Ascension among friends. I'm very exited on how this shall develop. I feel a line of abundance and prosperity aligning with me. Thou, there has been few massive changes in the way things are going.

On Saturday after a very beautiful late sleep in with David, he received the tragic news that his father died in his sleep during the night. A total collapse of emotions and feelings, a sense of chaos flowed the air. This very beautiful man who has always been strong now became as fragile as porcelain. A very powerful feeling that all is about to change invaded my awareness. I made all in my power to stay present, focus, neutral and available. I wanted to be able to offer some, any kind of support to beautiful D.
In the afternoon went to the Special Yoga Centre for kids and adults with special needs. The most amazing experience, total love and commitment between children and parents. I may start working with them more closely.

Sunday, had a great abundant yoga class at MoreFit. Every week we are doubling the numbers and the class is picking up very nicely.

Of course David left to Poland on Sunday and shall stay there for a few weeks, maybe 3. Meanwhile he let me stay in the flat with the frigde full of food until his return. He's truly and angel and I ask my Angels to assist him in any way possible to soothe his pain and awareness of the greater picture.

And so we began the final run to promote and fill up the workshop with beautiful souls that will make of this event something we shall all remember.

Also, I got today my first client at the gym and will stat working with him twice a week.

Bum pain healing in a unique way, I feel relief since I talked to my mom last Friday and I noticed that the best I can do is to keep it clean and free of chemicals. I'm taking aloe Vera drank and plasters in the area. Moving slowly but steady into a new reality.

Tomorrow big day!
LoveAlways
xXx

25.5.12 Chapter One Closed

Today exactly one month ago I left Mexico with a London destination. Back then I had few dreams and ideas why I wanted to come to London. Honestly, I wasn't very sure. I just knew there was something to do here, few opportunities ready to be taken and dreams to be achieved.

One month after I'm closing a cycle today. One of preparation and building on strength. Did I make this process fully aware? I'm not sure. I'm sure I'm following my dream. Somehow the mind which is not longer in control, serves as a tool and anchor. Serving tool in training process and a strange reminder of some fear I sometime felt.

First 3 chakras are still affected by the mind. Fear and uncertainty makes my stomach revolt and my arse aches. Feel a sense of slowing down, like between my unconscious mind and my higher self work together to make me slow down and follow some divine order. As if the times were already settled and my pains are a result of my still untrained mind trying to control.

I'm much stronger than when I arrived, I would say I'm as when I left to Mexico 7 months ago. Physically that is. Mentally, I'm still testing this new 2 hand organ with a brand new program that I'm still learning to work with.
When I step back and see what's been done and what's about to follow comes a realisation of something so much bigger in play.

I realise I'm just an instrument getting tuned and ready for action and this action starts tomorrow when for the first time I'll be talking in public about my experience and my services. Letting the magic to happen through me as I follow my inner guidance with unconditional love and humble service.

Today we close the fist chapter of training of becoming stronger in my body, mind and spirit. Tomorrow we begin performing and showing what I'm capable of.

All is well and I'm ready to come out of the closet with security in insecurity and safety on the unknown.

And so it is!
xXx

23.5.12 Understanding pain

Few days now I've experienced pain. Can't fully be myself because the constant reminder of something that I haven't fully understand. The pain is very intense, wakes me up in the middle of the night and makes terrible uncomfortable just being.
This pain is located on my first chakra, with this I understand a need to address feelings of belonging and security. There's a part of me looking for security, a place to live, a job to make money from, etc. in another perspective there's a side of me who trust I'll be provided while a do what I came back here to do. That is to serve in anyway possible to elevate the energy and consciousness of the collective mind. I'm realising how by elevating my own ill be in a better position to assist and coach others to transcend their own. So, with this understanding I welcome the pain that I feel so I can learn from it.
I understand that love and shift of emotions towards this pain can transform the pain into joy, disease into health and now I choose to love this pain which is teaching me to trust from deeper levels.

There's so much going on, my life is transforming. Sometimes I fee strong and very secure, other times I feel very vulnerable and alone, a duality of mind and spirit, mortality and immortality.
Every time I'm working, sharing, serving a transformation happens. I'm not myself, I am an instrument, that shines but then I go back to my solitude and I become me again. Like superman helping others and clark Kent in weakness and insecurity helping myself.
Maybe is part of the balance, I don't know. May be is the way it is and I should learn to live with it while I learn to be Superman all the time. Here I remember my friend Nicole saying: I know nothing. And I truly don't I rather trust that someone knows better than me and thus guiding my steps into light.

xXx

21.5.12 Sometime it hurts but its ok

What does this mean? Even thou I experience this intense pain in my arse. That is very intense and creates insecurity and pain. I choose to love, accept, forgive and value myself just the way I am
xXx

19.5.12 Eclipse Pleiades Alignment

For the last two night I've been having very interesting and fabulous dreams. The sight of great mother ships crossing the sky with a new civilisation making contact. Not strangely enough as it was my dream I became an important personality in the new world, with powers and abilities from other worlds, cultures and dimensions.

In the real world things were a bit more of the same, yoga class in the morning teaching about the importance of the cosmic alignments with the Pleiades star cluster, the sun annular eclipse and the new window of possible understanding of who we are.

I've been talking for so long about all this and today for the first time sounds to me like mambo-yambo. Of courses believe in the power of the connection with the cosmos but for some reason today, looking around and seeing everybody trying so hard to understand their own life and failing miserably makes me wonder what's all this really about.
From the practical misery of the ones hating their jobs and lives, to the ones in higher positions of truth and creation. We all experience pain in very uncomfortable places. All of us have the no understanding of understanding nothing, which at the end makes everything just a little more irrelevant.

Why to worry so much about making a long lasting impression. Is really that not important? Is everything just a game of egos? If so, why trying to win. Win what? Is happiness a price?, what about abundance, health and comfort?
We know we want health, but why? To enjoy more what? What about if dealing with pain is all there is? What about not craving for stability and safety but instead loving the insecurity and instability of an ever changing world.

I do believe I know nothing, nothing that is truly important at least. What makes the world go around and what makes the stars shine.

Understanding fear to experience love, loving pain to appreciate health. All this soup of words that al least in my case are the breath of my life. It may not be important to anyone else but by God, it is very important to me and that is good enough for me.

I trust that what I've discover would be I'd some use to someone else and will help alleviate their suffering and chaotic pain. I may not speak of reason but I certainly speak of love and I wish to share the very tiny nothing I have discovered and conquered just in case someone gets inspired to do the same for themselves and that would make my life worth living, even in pain and confusion, lost and ignored. However, I know because I know, because I know that there's a reason for for a fool like me to exist and that is good. Very good!

LoveAlways
xXx

18.5.12 Enough is God Enough

Sometimes I just get tired and trying to constantly keep on going unleashes the confusion and conflict within my head. I want to do the best I can, I want to be the best I am and I want to know that is good enough but sometimes I feel like is not enough and more needs to be done.

Today I started feeling the next coming challenge in my life is about to arrive. I need to be out David's house by the end of the month and I have no where to go. I have no money left and I right now I just want to cry.
People/friends advice me to use the system asking for housing benefits by saying that I'm homeless and dying of aids.... Excuse me! Who are these people who to dare to advice something like that to anyone. Dying or not, that's not the point. The point is, if anyone feels that the only way to get some help is by focusing on the weaknesses so people feel sorry for them then I'm not sure what I want, to be helped or not.
I'm not prepare to focus on my weaknesses ever, not because of ego or pride but because I choose to focus on my strength and if someone is going to help me is because they believe in my capacity to survive, create new possibilities out of nothing and admire my resilience to always keep getting back up... Someone who would admire the efforts but if that someone does not come forward that means to me that I'm stronger and another way will present and things will happen anyway.

In the meantime, I keep doing my best, loving my best, accepting my best and that is good enough.

FOR FUCK SAKE!
Enough is Enough

xXx

17.5.12 And so we start

I began the day early enough to do my meditation and preparing a hearty breakfast before my first day at work.
With tranquility and steady emotions I made my way to The Gym where I was going to be presented to a new generation of young people in search of their own identity.
As I arrived I felt like a veteran, maybe not as fit as them but for sure much more secure of who I am as I never was before.
I looked around the gym faces trying to stay focus on their workout, some more successful than others but all trying very hard to transform themselves into something they are not. Sweat and pain, push and pull, look and be looked. A game of egos played in front of my own eyes and I was just passing through. Living my own drama in my new environment. Feeling the signs of adaptation as tight cloths squeezing my lungs but as soon as I stopped trying to fit in I relaxed and I did just that... Fit in.

Got few people to talked to and help them sign up. Speaking Spanish was my way in and this time made me feel comfortable just as if I were a veteran at the club, as if I had been there and knew all about it but in reality was discovering everything as I was going along.

Few hours later began my way back home. Couldn't stay for my own training, I was just too tired. My new life needs to slide in slowly and I realise I need to be careful not to over do it, at least not at the beginning.
Came back home and began to work on the computer promoting my workshop. I'm very grateful I already have 5 confirmations. 5 everyday will fill up the room nicely guaranteeing an Ascension like never before.

With love and passion I ask my angels to guide and serve as light to inspire people in. To invite as many souls and to dive with as much love in this pull of transformation and change.

Love&Light
LoveAlways
xXx

16.5.12 All is Well and So it Is

The cosmic alignments bring peace of mind and security. We now know what to do and we just do it. We trust ourselves and the process of life with unwavering faith.
We begin a new process building strong foundations and understanding our roll in this world.
All is very Well and so it is.
xXx

15.5.12 Today WE SIGNED UP X 3

A wonderful day to see results. Is like having the first sight of a little plant you've been watching for a while. The seed was planted, care was taken, water was given and soon enough results were obtained.

First stop Alchemy, I got signed up for my workshop 'Ascension, Among friends' for the 3.6.12 @10:00am. What a beautiful date, it seems to me as if the numbers kept multiplying themselves and a perfect energy to fill the room with beautiful people eager to experience what the workshop is all about. Is like the Universe saying, for every soul you bring I get you x2, x2. Isn't that great!
Yes, I thought so :)

Second. Signed up with The Gym as Spiritual Coach and Holistic Trainer. Have already 2 classes for 'Core Yoga' assigned and I'm so looking forward to see the public reaction about the services I provide. I'm sure much business will come out of this. Besides, I'll have the opportunity to be around good looking sexy guys with a hint of sweat to make them look sexier... I'm just saying ;) Boys, here I come! LOL

Third. I signed up my first PA/PR. my Deer Princess friend has accepted to assist me with her talent and dedication to make the way to the top a guaranteed success. Someone to make sure the book 'Journey of Ascension' is written on time, looking for business and making sure we get the right words out there that will attract much interest and attention.

A wonderful day of assisted creation that for some reason came with an invitation to stay. Not for long though as today also has a very strong impersistent sensation, like whatever it is that I'm experiencing is not going to last for long. This is just a transitional period. Can't explain how I know that but I just know that this is the beginning of something great and massive and for the first time I feel 100% ready for whatever is yet to come.

I am immensely grateful to Father Universe who very lovenly give us the responsibilities we are ready, prepared and willing to take. Thank you for your confidence in me dear Father, thank you for your guidance and support but even more for your unconditional love. I live my life to honour your love and I wish and hope for the wisdom and faith to always do so.

In God We Trust
LoveAlways x3
xXx

14.5.12 Decisions Decisions Decisions

Simply choose, take it or leave it but oh my God how difficult this could be sometimes.
There's a part of me that says, keep aiming high and don't worry for practicalities things and miracles will happen that will resolve the situation somehow (my imbalanced number 3 and positive mind) and there's a new side of me saying, use what's available right now and make the best out of it, slowly things can be turned around the way you want them to look and with a bit of patience and structure you'll be where you want to be very soon. (obviously a more centred and balance number 3)

So, with this new balanced 3 weighting enough to tip the scale I choose to grab the options I've been offered. What I thought to be a problem with my qualifications and insurance is not at all and now I'm ready to join the team at The Gym. I realise that is not exactly my ideal job but is something to start with and today as i finished my savings I brought from Mexico made me think twice about taking this job offer. It has great potential to get me started both in fitness and spiritual coaching thou and is so far today my only real option available.
Meanwhile, things are moving great with spiritual coaching and tomorrow I have a meeting to set intentions for classes and workshops at my favourite holistic centre, Alchemy.

It takes a balanced mind to understand fear, love, attraction and rejection using all available resources to make a strong and solid life choice.

I'm building little by little but with constant advance and growth. I trust the process of life to show me the path to follow and with discipline I keep on track of my own balanced progress.

Thank you Ariel for offering so much to choose from. I'm blessed and grateful always.

xXx

13.5.12 Faith, it might just work for you too.

Who are you? What makes you think you're so great? Look around, nobody needs you. Everybody is more worried about making it through than making it better. Are you strong enough? Are you important enough? Are you whatever enough?

These and so many questions jumped into my head since yesterday. My mind made every possible attempt to mess with my confidence but I just let it be without rejection. I did not engage in the drama of questioning my motives to be me. Actually, I kind of left the drama in another suit because the one I've been wearing has no long sleeves for crying and cleaning my nose with. Oh no girlfriend, this suit is made of steel and I'm not feeling the pain of not believing in myself.

Didn't question my dis-attachment to my feelings, instead I just surfed through the days as if numbed by a new presence. This presence being the present moment, that is, but still moving away from mind drama and dark corners.

Have Faith! I read on a Facebook post and it just made me feel as if it was meant for me. Then, I read another post by somebody else who needed the same advice, so I post it and as I wrote 'Have Faith' I felt stronger in my own faith in myself. Very simple stuff that made a huge difference within me.

The day went on and I took off to my meeting with Alchemy. Magic happened when I got there as things developed with grace and strength.
I might not have fully understood the power of faith but today I experienced it.
By not feeding the fear I trusted in love and with faith I managed to go through the next stage. Now is a matter of holding on and keep going. The Universe and Source are manifesting through me and is wonderful in our eyes.

Thank you for all the blessings, guidance, reassurance and love.
LoveAlways
xXx

11.5.12 All or Nothing

I've been giving myself the time to organise my presentation to the holistic centres I want to visit. However, I know that there's no better presentation than my presence and after few days of writing ideas I woke up today with a message directly from Archangel Michael saying, You can do it, do it now! Immediately knew what the message was all about, I needed to stop preparing so much and start going out and talking to people, presenting the new me to the world.

I felt so much fear that I could not get out of bed for the whole morning. I was kind of petrified, there was a sense of just immobility, not forward not backward. I knew the time had arrived and it was asking me to do what I was supposed to do. Believe in myself, know that I can do it, feel the presence of my higher self in all my acts, in every second and through every breath. The more I realised this powerful reality the more I just wanted to find refuge in my sleep.

It was 11:11am and I could not even looked at the clock who kept counting the minutes and reminding me with every mark my inability to move and act. I started to feel regret. The morning was gone and with it possibilities that will not repeat. Many more will come but won't be the same.

Was at this point when I realised the date 11 May. In my spiritual numerology the number 11 means a parallel universe of everything and nothing. During the same space a possibility can be created and depends of our choice if we make something out of it or not.

I realised many things could happen today, the Universe was telling me that today I could have access to all that I want and desire. To begin making my dreams come true and follow the path I'm supposed to walk.

I couldn't keep ignoring the very laud messages of my angels and spirit guides. Every time I looked at the clock the number were shouting messages back to me. The mystic meaning behind each number became clear and unrealistically real.

I couldn't keep feeding my fear with thoughts of future possibilities that only created more fear within myself. I needed to focus only in the present moment to allow movement to exist and exit the paralysed state I found myself in. Began my meditation, 22 mins after I got clarity and new ideas that made my first step forward easier to take. A leap of faith which once again was asking all my strength to be utilised for a greater purpose.

Turn around the focus of what I'm offering, I thought. Stop trying to sell your 1to1 coaching and go for the big fish and sell your workshops. Once people know about you they will want to train with you. Classes will come naturally and success is guaranteed.

I just felt like I was given an advice from heaven. Like someone up there just passed me an enveloped under the table with top secret information .

Felt so secure and ready to come out of my hiding place that the leap of faith didn't feel that scary any more.

I prepared myself, got a brand new and quite expensive Rolodex to keep in order my appointments and information and headed to meet my first holistic centre.

I met one of the owner of Alchemy and got an appointment for next Sunday. Meanwhile I stayed talking with teachers and friends I knew at the centre to whom I began to pitch my sell. It served as the perfect starting point and I was very surprised about the security I felt talking about my new intentions, workshops and classes. I got few ideas to create more business and contacts to expand my workshops and fame.

Indeed was a fantastic day. I got very close to have nothing but by the grace of presence and awakened consciousness I got everything. The security and confirmation that I'm very loved and supported by God, my angels and spirit guides. The very strong understanding of a parallel Universe and the ability to follow guidance that gets me closer to my higher purpose in life.

In a very divinely guided sequence of synchronicities today we followed through and took the first step forward. We proudly present a new existence to the world and the presence of I AM.

SatNam

xXx

10.5.12 A beautiful day of love

I woke up early this morning and with a very strange pain in the top of my stomach. The pain was so intense that I needed to get up and prepare for meditation.
I have to admit that if it hadn't been for the pain I would have stayed in bed for a bit longer.
Preparing for my meditation I channeled my body and my higher self tuning into the pain. I asked myself what is what I need to know about this pain and in silence I waited for answer and it came in waves. First my mother as today we celebrate mothers day in Mexico and then David's the big love of my life for the moment. I realised I needed to connect with this people, with my mom I had been a little distant not wanting to share my full emotions here in London. I'm very grateful and always focus on the blessings but sometimes I just feel pain, my mind may block the understanding but my body still feels the feelings and thanks to that realise that I need to put attention on something. Then with D, I realised that we are more similar than we think we are. He's so material focused and me so spiritually focused but both are perfectionist and are great architects of reality and that we both needed a bit of attention.

I needed someone to hug and he needed to be hugged in his day off work. So I gave him a massage which relaxed the walls between us. Not that things are coming back but at least we can say good bye with love and care.

The whole day I've been massaging, talking, fooling around, laughing and eating. It was a great day with so much love and compassion for each other.

I'm glad that today beautiful great things happened without planing or attaching thought to them.

So today WE ENJOY LOVE
:)

LoveAlways
xXx

10.5.12 Mother's Day.., en la madre!

Claro que no podíamos dejar pasar este día desapercibido, aunque no soy muy seguidor de los pre-conceptos colectivos y comerciales de nuestra era.
Al haber recibido tantas bendiciones de mamá damos un fuerte abrazo lleno de amor a la vida que hoy en ti se refleja. Y haciendo voto de amor y agradecimiento brindo este momento y espacio para honrar al ser que me dio luz, calor, alimento y sustento. Por sus enseñanzas, su amor y su dedicación, Gracias Madre por brindarme sangre de tu sangre que corre por mis venas. Gracias por tanto amor siempre
Hoy solo te hago homenaje pero te honro cada día de mi vida.

Bendita eres entre todas las mujeres...
En amore incondicional
Je t'aime
Love&Light
Always
xXx

Viajando, explorando y conquistando... Siempre te llevo conmigo 

xXx

9.5.12 I'M A CELEBRITY Get me Out of Here

Do you remember the TV program "I'm a celebrity get out of here"? It could also read:

-I'm a victim and I don't have a choose.

-I'm an ignorant and I don't know what to do.

-I'm a VIP but inside I feel worthless.

-I'm powerful but don't believe in my strength.

-I tried everything but nothing works.

-I'm useless, do something for me.

And the list can go on and on and on.

In reality we just want someone or something to take responsibility for our happiness, our health, our spirituality, our safety, entertainment, fulfilment, etc as we give away the responsibility for our life. Priests/pastors to show us our own divinity. Doctors to heal our constant abuse to our body. Therapists to show us the way out of our misery. Partners to give us the love we don't give to ourselves. Parents to tell us what to do. Children to make us happy. Jobs to give us money. Laws to keep us out of trouble. Medications to numb our pain and fear. Food to makes feel good and secure. And again, the list can go on and on and on.

When's enough? When do we actually realise that something else has to be done in order to create change? That there's no way out unless we take take a different approach to our life. How come we expect different results by constantly repeating the same mistakes and only wishing it differently? 

There's nothing out there responsible for what's going on in here. That is that, take it or leave it. That's your choice and a very important one. We cannot continue blaming everything and everyone for what's happening to us; parents, bosses, neighbours, children, society, country, weather, health, past, present and future... whatever.

Until we realise that actually is the other way around things will never change. "The world around us depends on us to continue existing the way it is and there's everything we can do to change it". We just need to take responsibility for it and new possibilities will arise, new doors will open, new visions will emerge.

This, obviously is not for the faint-hearted or weak-spirit. This is a challenge only for those committed to make a difference in their world. To all those who have grown sick and tired to do what they were told and realise that even by doing everything 'right' something feels 'wrong' (What's right or wrong here is a sense of wellbeing or not, nothing to do with judgement of good or bad. Let's make that clear.)

If you don't have what you believe you deserve is because you don't believe enough you can have it. Because you doubt yourself and put yourself down every time an opportunity to excel comes your way.

You can say that is not your fault. You go out there and do the best you can to make a sell for example, and yes you probably do sell the best you can that product. But how well you believe in your own product? That product being YOU! 

Oh but you are diabetic, disabled, full of cancer, aids is killing you, your missing an eye and your skin itches. Your parents don't love you and your childhood was a terrible one. Your friends don't understand you and you just lost your job. Well done! You're still breathing and thinking.

Let me ask you few questions:

-Are you doing the best you can?

-Who told you this is the best you can do?

-Are you happy with the way you are?

-Do you love your looks?

-Do you love your job?

-Do you love being you?

-Do you love sex?

-Do you live the life of your dreams?

-Are you in love?

-Does somebody loves you?

-Have you achieved all your dreams?

-Are you a constant flow of creativity?

-Have you talk to God?

-Has God talked back to you? If so, why are you still here and not out there reaching your goals.

This post is intended to awaken spirits into existence. To awaken the power within ourselves and take responsibility for our thoughts, words and actions.

This world is ours and you are very important to us. Being your best is not only your responsability, it's ours as well. We are here to help eachother reach higher altitudes, not to step on each other's heads trying to hinder your progress so I look better.

If you're ready to make a differance and to take responsability of your world, fully committed to your happiness and wellbeing. Reaching the dreams you once believed in and creating a successful experience of your own existence... Know this, there are few people out there who have done it before. We're not miles away, Just few steps ahead and we're reaching back to offer some help to help us ascend to our mountain top together. You made a wonderful choice by deciding to share this moment with us. We are changing at a cosmic as well as molecular level. We can choose change or let change choose us but one thing is certain, we are moving on. 

Reaching for help is the first step forward.

In deep gratitude and love,

Eduardo Blanco

Spiritual & Awareness Coach

An unusual approach to life fitness.

- (inicial consultation free)

- (+44) 07511 816608 mobile

- www.eduardoblanco.com

- facebook.com/LoveAlways_x3

xXx

7.5.12 Lazy, Do not settle for less!

Tasty? not really. Today was closer to a dull meal than a tasty one. Not because the meal itself wasn't good enough but because we didn't take the time to prepare it nicely and make it more appealing to us.

And like with this example, how many times in life we settle for less simply because we didn't take the time or the energy to make it better for ourselves? Kind of strange when we realise we're talking about what makes us happy but at the same time is something we can't be bothered with.

Yesterday we had a meeting with a gym manager who offered us a position within their club. I went with a very open attitude to take whatever was been offered even though I knew I wanted something different. Knew from the very beginning that I was not up for personal training anymore, I've done that before and feel like I've outgrown the position not because is less to me but because I'm different, have now a very different outlook in the world and myself.

Anyhow, I still went and received with gratitude what was been offered. They looked more keen to have me than me to accept them and that made me feel strange, I was not excited about this process. The idea of working there didn't tick all my boxes but still it was the only offer I had at the moment, the only real possibility to make some money out of it. 

When I left the meeting, I felt like something within in me was missing, like loosing my spark. Walked down the street like robot and was in that moment when I looked around and saw that everybody was walking the same way. Automatons in dull mode. That image woke me up and realised that I was about to settle for less. At least less of what makes me happy and shine.

My mind began to wonder, I realised that I couldn't just say no to the offer. I was not prepared to shot down the flow of abundance by not taking the job just because I wanted something else.

So, how to be truthful to my feelings and at the same time go with the flow? This was a tricky one. I had no idea what to do and my mind was getting confused and clouded. So I took my hearts side and began to focus on my feelings. And my feelings were strong and well calibrated. Then, I looked for practical ways to let the gym manager know the job wasn't for me. I realised my credential were outdated and that I'm not longer the level I'm saying to be. This new circumstance became very useful and with this I decided to tell them that if they still want me I'm in but this is where I am right now.  If for some reason they decide to overlook this new situation and still want me to join The Gym, then it means to me that there's something I need to do/learn or change there and I will take the job- still waiting for their answer.

In the meantime, now I can focus on what I really want and believe which are my classes, workshops and coaching sessions. I don't want to do anything else and if I have to for the money have to be something with a salary and not working for free like I was going to do at the gym.

Not knowing what I want makes me fearful and confused but knowing what I want and settling for less makes me angry and depressed. Now I'm getting to know my reactions when in different situations.

I'm not prepared for scraps and crumbles, my new me is ready to hit the high notes and take on the big stage. I now understand that little things may come my way probably to trigger fears about my big dreams or to keep me in my comfort zone but this time my mind got it wrong, I'm not settling for less and I'm aimed to reach the top of my mountain

xXx

6.5.12 What do YOU really want???

What is more important to you, your own happiness or the happiness of others? 

If to me my happiness is more important, how come I know more about what makes others happy instead of what makes me happy?

Today I woke up trying to digest what is this concept of 'compromising or transigency' all about.

How much do we really know and declare what we want and what we don't want? How clear is it in our mind and hearts?

I, in my case, am not that sure of anything anymore. Today I've tried hard to understand my own feelings and took the time to ask myself constantly what do I really want.

All this came about because of the ever expanding way to see my own universe. Today for example, I taught my first yoga class at Morefit with only one student (which I'm very grateful for) but it made me realised how important it is for me to offer my services to a wider audience. Yesterday, I decided to teach this class for free, to open opportunities to attract more people and invite them to experience a new way of thinking, in reality what my classes are all about.

During the day I kept repeating to myself how by offering this class free I would be doing 'Seva' or selfless service to the world. But it's really a selfless service or just a way to compromise in order to obtain certain result or benefit?

I cannot deny that I'd love to see my class full and to inspire change in many minds. Neither can I deny the possibility of selling my Coaching and other services among the students. But is that what I really want? If I take away the need for money I would still offer offer my class for free and still charge for my other services, so I think what I really desire is to see my class full and make a difference in people's heart and mind. Regardless of what I get out of it... Well, that's now a bit clearer :)

Then, I got invited for dinner and a night out clubbing. At the beginning said yes more to avoid explanations than expressing my desires.

I knew that at the moment I have other priorities for the money I've got instead of going for dinner and clubbing, but then I got invited (all paid for) and again I said yes for the same reasons of avoiding confrontations. Was until the time to leave got closer when I realised that I didn't want to go for very different reasons. Even thou I love the group of people who invited me I have nothing in common with them. I'd be around drinks and intoxicating environments that doesn't really attract me anymore and third, I didn't want to be paid to come along. I don't sell my company anymore and I now choose with who I want to go out and who I don't.

It feels pretty good to know what One really wants and makes better decision-taking to also know what are we willing to compromise.

Learning about myself makes me better person, as for my feelings, I thank Archangel Chamuel for the assistance in finding clarity about understanding them.

xXx

5.5.12 I Am Invincible Vs Invisible

IMAGINE yourself sited in a very comfortable light-brown leather sofa inside of a nice and warm coffee shop.

Outside, the weather is cold and windy, from time to time a drizzle of rain patches the pavement with different tones. Right in front of you there's a big window and you get to see all the movement in the street. People coming and going completely unaware that you're observing the scene and you enjoy the drama of life unfolding in front of your eyes, like if it were created just for your own entreatment.

Because no one is looking at you and live their lives completely unaware of your existence it has the same feeling as if you were watching TV.

You have become an outsider of your own dimension. Just for a second you don't belong to the world outside as you now can watch it from a distance. Total dis-attachment from the events on the other side of the window, your mind is not judging only observing.

As you continue observing the world outside the window you start to notice certain feelings within yourself. You realise that every person, every car, every plant and corner, every element of the outside world creates a feeling within yourself. Something that you never noticed before as you were used to be invisible to the world and therefore the world be invisible to you.

Living in big cities makes specially interesting the fact how we have programmed ourselves to be surrounded by so many people and still feel alone. We read the newspapers and the tragic chaos happening to others and we feel nothing.

But this time is different, now you are an observer of the world out there and since you are taking the time to take it in that makes you feel for what's going on and that's why you're feeling those feelings within yourself as you observe the world around you.

Paradoxically, the more you remove yourself from the drama the more you belong to the world around you.

As you feel the emotions from looking at, now you are felt as well. You realise that people are now starting to look at you. You're not longer invisible. You are not longer anonymous.

This makes you feel uncomfortable and you look away every time you catch someone looking directly at you. For seconds your eyes meet and you feel the chills as if this person could feel what you're feeling. But why is that?

Could it be, maybe, because you're feeling what's this person's feeling and viseversa ?

This thought makes you get confused when you try it to understand but kind of makes sense when you just feel the feeling that's been created.

As you look away, you feel like you missed a chance to make some deep spiritual contact with this stranger. Why didn't I smile? -You ask yourself. Why did I look away? Why do i feel insecure? What else could I've done with that opportunity to connect?

These and many more questions pass through your head while still comfortably sited on the leather sofa.

You're still safe and warm inside the coffee shop when you feel someone is looking at you. This time you don't look away in shyness while in a fraction of a second you get a smile from the person meters away looking at you.

You feel good, the moment elevates your spirit and made you feel powerful, beautiful and strong. You know it means nothing but just a smile. A kind way to acknowledge a stranger looking at you.

You have no idea how this happened and try not to understand it as you simply enjoyed this new way to relate to the outside world. A world that once was unknown to you but now feels just a little closer to your heart and that makes you feel invincible.

It only took a moment but you learnt your lesson. Now you want to practice more to dis-attach from the drama, become an observer of the world around you, while connecting the dots of your feelings and emotions.

You feel superman with the power to disappear and appear whenever you want.

WELL DONE!!!

xXx

4.5.12 Some things are meant die

Every day a new vision, every day a new lesson and today was no different. Even from very early in the morning I felt 'something' different. Truly, I had no idea what it was, but it felt like a new level of understanding being unfold in front of me, although right now, it feels like I'm using the trial mode of a new program.

Recently, I've been feeling a very strange sensation of sadness but in a much much deeper way. It feels like if I'm realising that some "things" are meant to die and there's nothing we can do about it. Acceptance of death, embracement of the end? I don't know, and I don't mean to sound as tragic as it feels... but relationships end, business collapse, people die. But in reality people die every day and still breathe and walk on the streets. We live in a world of the living dead.

I believe that, when we don't live our lives to the maximum some part of us imminently dies. That part that doesn't expand along with the rest of the universe simply contracts and dies. The mind that can't keep up with the evolutionary process of awakening and expansion simply stays behind and begins to wither away, and when that happens is like seeing a man jumping out of a bridge to his death while we just watch the scene from afar. - There's nothing we can do to stop the man from jumping, and yet, we can't deny in some very strange and powerful way the responsibility we feel for his death. as if a part of us has also died with him.

I've had a suppressed cry within my chest for the last few days. Not knowing what it was I pretended nothing happened. Today, I've got the first tiny glimpse of what's coming our way and makes me sad not be able to do more for whomever is out there in the dark and cold side of the road.

I do wish so much happiness, love and abundance to everyone, and live my life in the service of others, but I also know that in so many lives out there, there's only sadness, hate, anger, hunger, illness, poverty and frustration. Even when there's a glimpse of light, the focus many times stays on the darker corner of our mind. Few have the ability to adapt to the light. And that feels sad, empty and quite scary, even if you tell people; -Look, there's light over here! They ignore you and keep pointing with fear to what they don't know, hurt and can't understand; blind, deaf and stubborn.

With this sadness and love I accept my incapacity to save them from their pain. I wish to banish their suffering with a flick of a finger or a kiss, but in their own ignorance and insanity they shall drown.
Yes, I feel their pain. I do, and a lot but with many men I'm simply unable to share the light that for whatever reason they try so hard to ignore.

And so, I say good bye blue sky... I wish you well and I know I will see you again very soon. And like I said before: Stop crying because your dying, better start laughing because you're buying it.

Ta ta
LoveAlways
xXx

3.5.12 The Point of NO Return

Many times we thought that we could be or do whatever is asked from us, transforming our identity in order to be accepted, included for fear of rejection. For year we became masters in disguise and masks created our many faces.

Sometimes we found ourselves involved in situations we never asked for (or so we thought) but as fast as we found ourselves in we got ourselves out, either by running away from the situation or by doing everything possible, consciously or unconsciously, to get back to normal. Here, let me describe 'normal' as to what is known to us as familiar, something that makes us feel comfortable and doesn't challenge us in any way. However, not because it's normal and makes us feel good, at least for short lapses, means that is beneficial to us. But let's not judge what's good or bad and just accept what is, specially now, let's embrace what's NEW.

As today's point is the one we cannot return from and we reach a certain place in our new identity where we realise we are not longer who we were and now there's a new order of things, thoughts and actions. A point of no return has been reached. The memory of who we were is just that, a memory that served us to remember who we are now.

This realisation of our newly found wisdom is what creates our new reality. The transition from minded madness to mindless sanity or what many call 'Ascended Sanity' is now in control of the vessel. The new/old I AM finally takes over the direction, speed and intensity of the illusion of life itself and how we experience it.

By our own actions we are creators of a new reality. With words we honour the divine within ourselves and through our thoughts we become who we're meant to be.

Who I am today will not longer be tomorrow. Everyday I reinvent myself and ask for guidance to follow my true inspiration and divinity for the service of my Higher Self.

And so I AM NEW

xXx

2.5.12 Duality. Should I or Should I not

It's still only midday here in London but I haven't left the bed yet. I'm finding the solitude of every morning very calming and refreshing for the first time in my new life.
Living with at my moms for almost 4 months after my rebirth back in Metepec was lovely, but her levels of energy are amazing and nothing compared to the amount of tasks to be performed during the day. She wakes up everyday around 5am if not earlier, Sadhana, meditation, yoga was the first course; deep talking, day planning and gym was second in line; breakfast, watering garden, washing whatever washable and Geli's visit were there every day before 11am.
By that time I was already tired but all these was only the beginning. Yoga class, biomagetic therapy, supermarket, something to do with government and or banks, buying tortillas, getting home for lunch. - I'm not finish yet, by now is only 3pm. Sometimes,( more like every time) a nap was needed for me and I lied down to recover some energy if my mom was checking her emails in the other room. If by chance she wanted to lie down as well my possibilities of a restful nap got reduce at least by half as she likes to sleep with her half-a-mile flat HD TV ... ON!

I normally began working again by 4pm (11 to 1pm and 4-8pm) So didnt have much of a rest. Later in the evening, another yoga class finishing at 9pm and back home.

By then, I was so tired I hardly knew my name. But that's not all, this story continues...

Arriving back home, preparing something for dinner, drop in front of the massive TV just to zombie whatever channel was on with something relatively good which 90% ended on 'Law & Order' or CSI Miami, NY or Las Vegas. Second visit of lovely Geli around 10:30pm and watching the news with Lopez Doriga. By 11pm Geli was gone and now the rituals for bed.

Everything has a ritual and a way things are done at Akashas Place. Sometimes works in your favour (well, maybe not yours, but definitely on hers) as everything is where it's supposed to be and you could find a needle in the middle of the night, without turning the light on and in complete darkness.
At some point I took energy out my strength reserves to write my now compulsory daily blog, finally putting my head in the pillow, which has nothing to do with falling asleep in my very personal case.
Mother has her sleeping patterns so synchronised with her schedules that the second she puts her lovely head down the snoring is turned on as a reminder of how much sleep I was missing (if I was awake to listen to it)

and then, finally sleep to wake up just few hours later with pretty much the same schedule for the day.

So, as you can see, relaxing in bed now when no one's around is pretty nice and much needed. Mind thou thinks I should feel guilty for not doing something more or different than just sleeping. However, I knew I needed this period of time to catch up with my full recovery and sleep. Before coming here I thought about taking things very easily for the first two weeks before starting in full strength. I believe rest is as important to recover as the creative work to be done.

Now at 13:20pm will get ready to eat something and visit the gym before my meeting with royalty this evening.

Thank you for your lovely time
LoveAlways

xXx

1.5.12 GIVE ME BACK MY PRESENT

I want to cry but have no reason so I make a tantrum just because there's nothing better to do. (my rebel inner me speaking)

I know I need patience and a good steady flow of it will make everyone happy. Well, today I'm lacking this flow and I don't care who's happy or who's not (specially when I'm not). - passed most of the night wondering what this feeling was and came to the conclusion that is related to a sense of rejection or not being good enough at least for certain people.
As a child we were very often given presents either for Christmas or birthdays and sometimes even before the day ended we've got the presents taken away or given to somebody else.
This same feeling of unworthiness is what I'm going through right now. David says, that he realises we are too different and that he's looking for something he knows I can't offer to him (we live in a material world and I'm a material girl). So he decided to step down of our relationship and perfectly draw the line of separation between us.

In this matter I agree with him. I do want someone by my side who can listen more with the heart than with the mind. Someone who would allow a 2 or 3 way communication between body mind and spirit and is open and receptive, brave and adventurous.

I know David have a wonderful heart and is very creative but with one massive problem and that is the big head over his shoulders. Not in size itself but the level of control his under. Obviously as every other mind-controlled existence it is based on fear and limitation. This is not judgement, it's a fact. The mind works in fear and letting this organ be the captain of your ship creates only massive insecurities and doubts on how life should be lived.

By night I came to understand that it could make things beautiful for the little time being if we agree to disagree and simply enjoy the time and the little moments we have together. Is not about firery passions that will burn out as quick as they started but to give each other the chance to be open and receptive to love and be loved. Be companions, more than the european concept of friendship. Drop the walls of protection and open the gates of the souls and mind. Let the sun shine inside into the darkest corners of the heart and feel the warmth of love... It won't last for long so why not enjoy it now. Well, that's my say.

But the message was not delivered. David decided that getting into an open attitude to love and enjoyment would only jeopardise his controlled emotions. That he only wants certain feelings to come in and keep out those unwanted ones.
He doesn't realise that one comes with the other. No one can block fear without blocking love with it, no one can block pain without blocking healing as well, no one can block sadness without blocking happiness too. I know is difficult to find unity in these understandings, especially when they mean something so opposite, but that's the way it is

So today I resolve to let go. I can't love who doesn't want it or help who hasn't asked for it.

With my deepest respect and unconditional love I set myself on standby, with the hope that one day not too far, love is welcome back to present time before is too late and lost forever.


LoveAlways
xXx