Father's Day

I feel the need to experience some fatherly love, not from my father or a father figure but from myself to me.
Since yesterday I've have gone through a series of events and awareness situations.
I realised how tough I have been with myself. I kind of knew from time ago but never really hit me the way it did This time. The way I demand from others the ability to change and evolve is the same way I demand from myself.

I've been asking how best to love myself and to be honest I didn't have much of an idea of what to do to approach this new perspective in my life. I thought that treating me nicely would be enough. That means eating nutritious foods, keeping toxins of my system and with that I thought would be enough.

However that's the kind of relationship an absent or a very severe father would have with his child. Providing everything but attention, time, presence, understanding.
I was raised to believed the most important part of life was to do all you can do to be the best, nothing is more important that to prove I'm worth the air I breathe and making my family proud.
I'll my life I thought I wanted to prove myself to the world, in reality I just wanted to prove it to myself.
However, dealing with the syndrome ' not good enough' made it very difficult to ever reach my own expectations of myself.
I didn't noticed how much I demanded from me until I wrote the Article from last Saturday 'A moment in time' and I realised how much I demanded from people around me. I was not treating people with love, even thou I felt love for them. Instead I focus in their faults and point them out and if they couldn't deal with it I kept pushing more and more.

Today I am aware of this fact. I understand that to love myself I can start by loving others. Accepting them the way they are. Helping and coaching their ascendance with love, patience and tolerance.

I definitely believe in self love and now I think I can start focusing my thought to building a solid foundation based in a loving attitude towards myself and my people.

Note: I had 2 days with fever but I think is all part of the emotions lived with this new awareness. I ask God and my Angels for a speedy recovery and clarity for understanding and accepting this new way of being.

Thank you for all the blessings poured over me, my family and friends
xXx