Today I realised that I may have a conflict of interest for I'm not totally convinced of my desire to stop my diarrea. I say this because in some unconscious and unbalanced way I've been able to become aware of this situation, I realised I enjoy the fast release and watery consistence as I feel I don't have to pusher work harder for it and it goes away easily, besides its easier for me to clean the mess. This situation reflects pretty much everything else in my life as I can get rid of everything so easily hence the fact I own nothing material right now. However, this is about to change.
The candidiasis got much better today with better cleanliness but more importantly with my new found ability to communicate and express my feelings. I still feel afraid of opening up and doesn't come easy but I'm taking baby steps towards a much greater communication, self-acceptance and love.
I love my mom and I love my David and I only ask my God that I would never be misunderstood when I raise my feelings and emotions in ways that they might feel confronted them selfs.
I love and accept myself the way I am. I create a safe and secure world around me. I now hold on to my creations and valuables being very grateful for what I have right now in the knowledge that I can build on as much wealth and abundance as I desire. I keep the love and energy that nurtures me and I grow stronger with every breath I take.
Thank you my guardian angels for your guidance, protection, and love
LoveAlways
xXx
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