Paradoxically, it has also been the time of my life where I feel moust complete, relaxed and happy with my life and who I am.
How did I get into this strange combination? I feel that the answer can only be found in spirituality. If I measure my level of success by material gains, I can definitely consider myself a failure. I managed to loose or give up everything I came to own that in some sort of market has value. Not only economic but also emotional value.
A year ago I set myself into a journey that had no pre-determined conclusion only the search for the unknown, with the hope to understand a little bit better who I am and why did I choose to come to this world at this time in the history of humanity. I mean, I truly believe these are the best times to be alive as we experience a collective shift in consciousness in the human psique and as we are here to experience it, I feel people will talk about this times as one of the great moments in history.
Everything I believed to be of weight and importance before is now completely irrelevant in my life. All the things I always wanted are now undesirable or simply not needed. Which in the reality sets us in a very powerful platform of freedom and balance. However, I'm still only human, living within a society and moust importantly with a mission. One to be completed not by the romantic idea of a predisposed destiny but by feeling of totality and readiness, with the necessary tools and experience to face the challenge that makes my life worth living.
For me this means a complete alignment between the physical and etherial worlds, with a sense of service to the collective evolution that is as strong as my very own sense of survival.
This is by far something I can't explain with words. How did I get to this conclusion, why do I feel the need to create something of great importance for me and for all? I have many theories and much more ideas but whatever the Origen of this idea comes from, It becomes evident that cannot be from this one lifetime only, surely it is something beyond life and death. Obviously, this re-enforces my believes in re-incarnation and past lives but regardless of what was, now I feel a bit more clear about what 'is' and this gives me a better idea of what could be.
Still, in a sense of belonging to this society with all it cultural developments I can't see how having nothing is now more valuable than having it all.
Thankfully I had the opportunity to enjoy everything I once dreamt. Security, love from others, sexual attraction, economic power, etc. and would advice anyone seeking the spiritual path to first enjoy the glamour of materialism. Not because I believe having things is important now but because having it makes you realise they are not important. Otherwise the unfulfilled dreams and expectations will always hunt a weak heart and mind.
This takes us to another focus of this article; Why do we need to produce or create from cero everything we want for ourselves. What I mean by that is that life is full of gifts ready available to all but I find moust people are worried about working hard to make it all by themselves instead of allowing life to give you your desires. Explaining this: moust people, again, dream about winning the lottery but have very little idea what they will do with it. Typically is a big house, a nice car, travels and lifestyle and since they have played for years without winning much the other obvious solution is to work, work work. But I ask myself, is that all? Is that what we really want? Work work work for things we want but will leave behind at the end?
Of course, you can say: Is not about taking them but about enjoying them.
What I find very interesting is that I obtained and enjoyed all the things I wanted and a lot more by not doing much or studying decades or years of hard working labor. It's like some part of me always knew that even thou I wanted to experience all those things in life, it would not make me happy or give me peace of mind and heart at the end and therefore was not worth the investment of a lifetime to obtain them.
This may sound very cynical and absurd to specially people who have been raised in particular by the working class of society. As we are taught that the only way to obtain things of value is by hard work and by fighting for our rights. Nothing 'out there' can be obtained without sweat and tears.... or very good luck and a lottery ticket ;)
Well, actually there is, and a lot of it. One only needs to know where to look, understand that as we receive we have to give energetically, physically or emotionally (This is not my theory but the universal law of abundance and prosperity) and have a little humility to accept what's been given instead of rejecting for fear of "what do I need to give in order to have this" We all do what we need to do to have what we need, want and desire. What I ask here... is a lifetime obtaining outer security (like a house) really worth it? What about if we aim for inner security and we trust that we will always be provided of that that we need? I have many times confirmed this theory. Life gives you what you want, even if that means problems and a very slow and painful process of success and satisfaction because that's what you believe life is, a gradual process of achievements and goals. The problem I see here is that, by the time you obtain everything you worked for so long, at the end you may realise it is not what you really wanted in the first place... by that time you are, if lucky, as young as 40 and can start all over again or over 70 and the best you can expect is to loose your memory and not remember much of anything.
I'm only saying, in context, what does failure and success really mean? I know life has been about survival of the fittest, struggle and pain in in order to obtain pleasure and security. But that was before we were conscious about our own mind power, spiritual wisdom, clarity, conectivness, collective awareness, etc.
Yes, I'm homeless but with a home, I'm not employed but I produce and create day and night, don't have a salary but do have unlimited resources to provide me with everything I need and want. I don't have much material possessions but I need very little and my desires are attached to my dreams which are becoming reality as we speak. having lost most of things I fear very very little and after tried and taste moust of things in life, finally can take better decisions with a wiser and experienced mind.
So the real question is:
What is success?
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