1.9.12 Finally I can take a brake

I can't remember how it feels not to be in the struggle. Reaching higher to discover my own truth. Since I can remember I've been questioning myself and everything that affects me, maintaining my strength, endurance and capacity to fight back. I can say that I'm very proud of my achievements, I won't deny also that I'm now feeling very tired. Tired of the constant battle, gaining terrain over my own conditionings and fears. Understanding pain and suffering and truly feeling right inside.

Talking to a nurse last week she said "it seems to me you have reached the top of your mountain and now you can see clearly the land below. You have now the ability to take better choices that feel right for you. I think you've done it" I cannot measure the level of happiness and satisfaction that those words made me feel, right at the moment when I thought I had nothing left, no home, no money, no work, everything opens infront of me to show me that it's ok, now I can relax and be cared for. Now I know my truth and with that everything is right and perfect.
It's a very paradoxical situation feeling so good and at the same time so tired and weak but what makes it very interesting is a feeling deep with in that tells me that the good feeling will stay for ever and grow while the bad feelings of weakness and tiredness will disappear and transcend.

A big holiday of being me. I'll be back but right now it feels good to stop for a while and enjoy the moment of wisdom and inner peace I have achieved.

LoveAlways
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