THIS IS HOW ITS DONE "Out of Body Experience"

Last night I left my body to travel in time and space to assist to a very special event that had my name on it in Mexico.
Between the work and dedication of three people, the participation of 13 people and thousands of Beings of many dimensions and plains we created a bridge of Love, Light & Peace across the whole world and beyond. However I know and feel the results now, I was not aware of the process been developed until it was fully completed... that happend last night and this morning as I woke up from a very real and powerful dream.

This is how it happend.
through the power of love and compassion, an event was created in Mexico that had my name on it and was intended to collect some funds to help me in the process I was submerge into. I became homeless on the 21 August and have been assisted by the government, living in temporary accommodation provided by the council. I lost all my clients due to very strange physical symptoms the doctors could not identify. My throat and rectum were completely blocked and even after few tests the doctors couldn't find anything wrong, so as they use to do, I was prescribed all the medication available for all kind of things. In the meantime, I was kept in a strange isolation of physical, mental and emotional weakness. At this point I still had no idea what was going on or if anything was interconnected or if it was part of the same process.

Spiritually, I was getting deeper and deeper into some sort of trance that lasted for many days, a numbness of the mind that allowed a connection with an emptiness never experienced before.
This situation continued for at least 3 weeks. For me it felt like some kind of identity death.
Suddenly by a change of attitude and perspective, I start to experience a very sharped awareness and ability to tap into some sort of wisdom or file cabinet that allowed me to understand what was going on and the reasons of all that was experiencing.
I began to meet with a Transcendental Psychologist and Reiki practitioner to exchange energy. I met this person first as through my Coaching services months ago. We had only one session but just after one single session she went into a journey of self discovery and told me that would probably take up to a month before we meet again. As she returned I felt an urge to contact her and offer to continue with the Coaching but she comment that money was now an issue and it would be very difficult for her to pay the £60 cost.

For me money has never been an issue and I offered to have an exchange of services. I did not offered it for free as just very recently I had learned about the flow and laws of Prosperity and Abundance, so I offered an exchange, my Coaching for her Reiki. And so we did.
Next week we agreed to meet with the intention to continue with her Coaching but from the moment we met our mind began behaving very powerfully and infused together in a dance of intellect, wisdom and philosophy. Our fist meeting we just couldn't stop talking about the Identity of the Mind and Ego and how to dissolve it to see the identity of the true-Self. Going deeper and deeper into consciousness as the minutes passed. Coaching and Reiki became very quickly 2nd in importance.
For Three weeks we met of Friday mornings and every time I was left with a massive lesson to be acknowledged and processed in order for the for it to be applied in real world ASAP.

Meanwhile, in Mexico there was a group of people so focused on the creation of an event that will help me continue or at least alleviate the difficult financial situation I was experiencing then.
During all this time also "Time" has been loosing its meaning as I began to experience synchronicity moments getting closer and closer and stating to live my life in some sort of wave that kept confirming I was at the right moment at the right place, doing and Being in alignment with the Universe.

As the day of the "Mexican Event" got closer, also the awareness and synchronistic began to close the gaps in between.
I kept posting all this emotions and thoughts on Facebook, some of them making sense, some of them not at all but to me it all made sense at some point even when I didn't know the greater purposes of those posts, intention or meaning. I kept faithful to my intuition and kept posting away :)

Yesterday 28.09.12 on the day of the Event, began as normal, but from very early hours things were just clicking in the right place. I began to get the final piece of many, many puzzles that had been commenced at different times but were going to culminate at the same time.
At this point, I was out of questions. I simply trusted that the Universe had much better idea of what was going on and I allowed my self to be guided purely by intuition.
Few steps were completed during the day, very powerful Ego confrontations, my Friday meeting to exchange energy, charging from friends love and warmth, solitude, meditation, a lot of breathing deep and slow techniques.

As the Sun began to dawn, my fears began to arrise. I felt the need of some sort of aid but remembered many of my posts on Facebook and specially one of them kept floating inside my mind "Today WE NEED NOTHING" So, diminish any need to drink, smoke or eat in excess. tried to keep my mind in silence as I have been practicing in the last few weeks like a silent mantra playing in awareness and consciousness or training a puppy or a child. Lots of patience, love and compassion. 
This time wasn't that difficult and decided to maintain as clear and in the moment as possible.

At this time also the main organiser of the Event in Mexico got online and we began to chat online. My connection was terribly slow. Many times I almost desist and forget about the conversation but something kept puling me to stay on and go with the flow of feelings and emotions created. At that point I knew the conversation was more that just a chat. We were actually building up in emotion for what was going to be the Main Event, beyond the Mexican One.

The conversation lasted for hours as I followed Diana through her journey few hours before the Event. Moments of joy, laughter, tears and a lot of connection beyond the internet but from soul.
At the end, we let each other go to start the performance of that night where something special had been prepared for both.

She went offline and I went to sleep. By that time my feet, my hands and whole body were in some sort of electric shock. I tried to relax and go into deep meditation while laying down.
I began to dream very vividly about being in my room and getting up from bed. At this point I thought it was me with my body until I get to the center of the room and shoot up like a spark of light into the darkness and vastness of the Universe.
First, there was nothing even thou I felt I was travelling great distances my eyes couldn't persive absolutely nothing. I began to feel comfortable with the travel and flying sensation as I approached sea of space debris so dense I needed to go avoiding getting hit as I travel trough it. At this point I realised I was not traveling alone. Some sort of guide kept me safe from heating. It felt as a travel guide who knew perfectly the area. Now I know He/She is ALEGRIA my travel companion, an angel or spirit that had been assigned to me in 2008 during an Angelic connection.
Anyway, I had no idea where we were going or what was going on but I was enjoying the very energetic and amazing trip.
We arrived at some kind of planet that looked very similar to Earth from outside but as soon as we crossed the atmosphere I found a planet completely covered by a decadent civilisation gone very wrong.
People had many mind abilities that I could recognise as I'm stating to have acces to them myself, but used in abuse or negligence for the benefit of few only. Machines, combustion everywhere, sunlight was very limited and clouds of smoke choked the throat. There were not many habitants at least I couldn't see anyone but felt the presence of some kind of humans living there. We reached land and we began to walk though the very dark city. Everyone was in hiding, but didn't undertand of what. As I felt someone running towards us in an intent to assault. That was what I felt. but the entity got closer at fantastic speeds, just crossed our bodies and went up flying angry for not been able to take over us. It was very strange but felt like as he could sense us but we didn't belong to the same diminution.

I was guided through the place moving at very fast speed to travel from place to place. We arrived at some sort of underground facility where human cloning happend un supervised and under low quality control.
Some how that civilisation had reached a very high level of technology and mind power without the wisdom or clarity of an awaken spiritual connection. Humanoids were being produced and not longer born. Funny enough many looked like me. I had the very strong sensation that they were my children.
As we walked through the laboratory of cloned humans, we found one that was walking freely. A young boy of 15-17 years of age. Very kind and sweet features but with an empty look in his eyes walk pass in front of us. I felt as he knew we were there and looked me directly in the eyes. I smiled and felt so much love for that boy, I knew he was connected to me in in some way. But he didn't pay to much attention to me and continue his zombie walk through the dark place.

Then I was taken outside again. This time in the middle of a riot or a street manifestation. Many loked the same as the boy, lost in an empty mind with only one desire to survive . This survival I felt depended  of energy, reason why they could sense our presence but could not harm us in any way. People were crazy, like a very hungry pack of wolfs. I felt very sad for those people who in reality had no reason to exist, at least not in that way as they were only result of ambition, greed and fear of very few ones who still had the ability to think and feel.
I was starting to get a grip of that world. Their lack of emotions and depth and the very decadent world they lived in, deprived of natural resources or at least clean air and water.

It was time to go back and my travel guide took my hand or or shoulder, can't remember well and we took back to the air. Crossing the vey thick and dense cloud of smoke that covered that planet. Then, into the sea of debris which I understood then was all the space trash from that planet.
We speeded up so quick that the debris disappeared turning into flashes of light giving the impression of comets traveling in the sky.
I was back in my room, I had no idea why I was shown all that. Why me? Immediately knew why. I have always Believed. I took responsibility over my acts and thought and realised that was only the product of my desires and dreams. I simply had reached a point of manifestation that made everything possible.

I entered and became aware of my body. I opened my eyes and felt gravity. I knew I was back in my body as in consciousness everything felt the same but in into the physical world.
I was very impressed and amazed with that journey. I still didn't connect the dots with the Event in Mexico. Got up, went to the toilet and came back to bed. I had another mini-dream.(Next post) as vivid as the first one but with different feeling.

When until I read Diana's chronicle of her Event in Mexico that everything clicked. I have traveled in space and time powered by the energy created in Mexico. Something only possible by the generosity and love of others. I feel I was shown the future of this planet or at least a possible outcome if we continue as we are, in zombie land.

Today has been wrapped in a vail of peace and serenity. Music played, incense burnt, meditation and cleaning. Silent and relaxed.
I know, I just wanted to document this to share with my loved ones and with those who are attracted to this post.

I send my loveAlways across time and space to all beings of planet Earth in shield of protection and love. To Mexico my kisses are in every grain of soil of that beautiful land. To my people: Diana, Akasha, Nancy and All who participated in this event. THANK YOU. THANK YOU. THANK YOU.

LoveAlways
xXx

A Dream within a Dream

As I woke up, I was still submerge in a dance with tears and laughs.
All began waking up from a deep sleep and realising I was teaching my Awareness Class for this Sunday. I knew I was expecting some special people who I met during my times going around places but I never knew for certain who was going to come.

However, I woke up right at the end of the class and I saw a beautiful group of people in complete peace and communion with each other. I saw a Kundalini Yogui with long beard and a turban playing a little guitar to a young tall and brown teenager. The boy felt as if he was in loved with the Yogui as they sang and played music together.

I keep trying to remember what had happened, I didn't remember teaching the class and felt as if I had just black outed during its all duration.
I started asking around what had happened and everyone told me that everything was ok, that the class was beautiful. Everyone still absorbed by the peace with in.
So, I decided to calm my nerves and thoughts that at least the class had been given and everyone was happy. However, still I couldn't remember anything about it.

As people began to leave the room, I caught a young man in his 30s going to his car and asked him if the Yogui had taught the class and he said, No, that I did. I was very surprised and that helped to calmed my stress. But then, why I couldn't remember anything about it. The young man was packing his things in his car as I kept inquiring about the class. How was it? I asked. -Beautiful! He said as he closed his car and walked me back to the studio or salon to join the rest.

As we entered the classroom, I decided to talked to the Yogui and just thanked him for his presence and used the opportunity to ask for his opinion or feedback from my class. I knew I had not longer followed Yogi Bahjan's teachings to the line and had transformed the class into a completely different thing, guided only by my intuition and inner wisdom.
As I offered my gratitude I also asked why he was here for. He tells me that him and his young companion had come to see me, they knew I was about to start a new journey and they wanted to record some music with me to include it in an album that they were close to release to the public.

I was amazed with his words. I was feeling so honoured and thankful for even thinking about me. Then, by grabbing him from the shoulders we stood up as I wanted to hug him tight and lovely to welcome him and his guest.
We hugs for a timeless moment, then I welcomed the young boy who got so close to me that I felt his excited genitals pushing against mine. This excites my briefly but I make nothing more out of it.
As I turned to the Yogui again and taking a closer look, I began to recognise his face. In surprise I said loudly, -I KNOW YOU! And he said I know, -I know you too and I missed you for so long. His face stated to look cleaner as his beard began to disappear and a very youngish look began to emerge. In my mind he looked like a young Jonny Deep and we hug again as he began to cry inconsolably wetting my shirt.
He wasn't very tall. His head reached only to my chest but at that time it felt as if it was meant for that moment as he cried over my heart filling it with emotions of compassion, friendship and love.
I couldn't and was not even going to try to stop him. I just let him release his emotions in a warm flow of tears of joy.
We started to wobble our bodies and I placed my right hand over his head to offer Reiki and soothe his mind and emotions.
People around the classroom were preparing the room for some sort of celebration, a banquet was brought and displayed on a table someone else had brought. As they continue with the preparations, they looked at us with sweet eyes and smiles. As if they knew exactly what was going on.

My wobbling with the young Yogui soon turned into a soft and romantic dance as soft music or mantras had been playing all this time on the background.

I said to him, -you see? We're dancing together and We Always Will. Come, dry your tears. Now is time to eat and join the celebration.

As we approached everyone else, I began to wake up and the dream began to fog and get lost in a mist. As if a camera pulled back leaving the scene to continue as we return to the world where dreams truly come true.

My LoveAlways
xXx

Understanding Failure

Failure has been one of the topics going around my mind for a while now. Specially since I became homeless with no ability to care for myself... or so I thought :)
Paradoxically, it has also been the time of my life where I feel moust complete, relaxed and happy with my life and who I am.
How did I get into this strange combination? I feel that the answer can only be found in spirituality. If I measure my level of success by material gains, I can definitely consider myself a failure. I managed to loose or give up everything I came to own that in some sort of market has value. Not only economic but also emotional value.
A year ago I set myself into a journey that had no pre-determined conclusion only the search for the unknown, with the hope to understand a little bit better who I am and why did I choose to come to this world at this time in the history of humanity. I mean, I truly believe these are the best times to be alive as we experience a collective shift in consciousness in the human psique and as we are here to experience it, I feel people will talk about this times as one of the great moments in history.

Everything I believed to be of weight and importance before is now completely irrelevant in my life. All the things I always wanted are now undesirable or simply not needed. Which in the reality sets us in a very powerful platform of freedom and balance. However, I'm still only human, living within a society and moust importantly with a mission. One to be completed not by the romantic idea of a predisposed destiny but by feeling of totality and readiness, with the necessary tools and experience to face the challenge that makes my life worth living.
For me this means a complete alignment between the physical and etherial worlds, with a sense of service to the collective evolution that is as strong as my very own sense of survival.
This is by far something I can't explain with words. How did I get to this conclusion, why do I feel the need to create something of great importance for me and for all? I have many theories and much more ideas but whatever the Origen of this idea comes from, It becomes evident that cannot be from this one lifetime only, surely it is something beyond life and death. Obviously, this re-enforces my believes in re-incarnation and past lives but regardless of what was, now I feel a bit more clear about what 'is' and this gives me a better idea of what could be.
Still, in a sense of belonging to this society with all it cultural developments I can't see how having nothing is now more valuable than having it all.
Thankfully I had the opportunity to enjoy everything I once dreamt. Security, love from others, sexual attraction, economic power, etc. and would advice anyone seeking the spiritual path to first enjoy the glamour of materialism. Not because I believe having things is important now but because having it makes you realise they are not important. Otherwise the unfulfilled dreams and expectations will always hunt a weak heart and mind.

This takes us to another focus of this article; Why do we need to produce or create from cero everything we want for ourselves. What I mean by that is that life is full of gifts ready available to all but I find moust people are worried about working hard to make it all by themselves instead of allowing life to give you your desires. Explaining this: moust people, again, dream about winning the lottery but have very little idea what they will do with it. Typically is a big house, a nice car, travels and lifestyle and since they have played for years without winning much the other obvious solution is to work, work work. But I ask myself, is that all? Is that what we really want? Work work work for things we want but will leave behind at the end?

Of course, you can say: Is not about taking them but about enjoying them.
What I find very interesting is that I obtained and enjoyed all the things I wanted and a lot more by not doing much or studying decades or years of hard working labor. It's like some part of me always knew that even thou I wanted to experience all those things in life, it would not make me happy or give me peace of mind and heart at the end and therefore was not worth the investment of a lifetime to obtain them.
This may sound very cynical and absurd to specially people who have been raised in particular by the working class of society. As we are taught that the only way to obtain things of value is by hard work and by fighting for our rights. Nothing 'out there' can be obtained without sweat and tears.... or very good luck and a lottery ticket ;)

Well, actually there is, and a lot of it. One only needs to know where to look, understand that as we receive we have to give energetically, physically or emotionally (This is not my theory but the universal law of abundance and prosperity) and have a little humility to accept what's been given instead of rejecting for fear of "what do I need to give in order to have this" We all do what we need to do to have what we need, want and desire. What I ask here... is a lifetime obtaining outer security (like a house) really worth it? What about if we aim for inner security and we trust that we will always be provided of that that we need? I have many times confirmed this theory. Life gives you what you want, even if that means problems and a very slow and painful process of success and satisfaction because that's what you believe life is, a gradual process of achievements and goals. The problem I see here is that, by the time you obtain everything you worked for so long, at the end you may realise it is not what you really wanted in the first place... by that time you are, if lucky, as young as 40 and can start all over again or over 70 and the best you can expect is to loose your memory and not remember much of anything.

I'm only saying, in context, what does failure and success really mean? I know life has been about survival of the fittest, struggle and pain in in order to obtain pleasure and security. But that was before we were conscious about our own mind power, spiritual wisdom, clarity, conectivness, collective awareness, etc.

Yes, I'm homeless but with a home, I'm not employed but I produce and create day and night, don't have a salary but do have unlimited resources to provide me with everything I need and want. I don't have much material possessions but I need very little and my desires are attached to my dreams which are becoming reality as we speak. having lost most of things I fear very very little and after tried and taste moust of things in life, finally can take better decisions with a wiser and experienced mind.


So the real question is:

What is success?

xXx

Understanding Oneness

In the run for a deeper transition into Oneness and putting together all the knowledge and the wisdom gathered, came to realise that this concept is so much more than a romantic idea of belonging to all or loving all. Oneness is truly our survival and support mechanism.
After coming in touch with my new One identity feeling its power and magnificence, I came to understand that however powerful, however wonderful it's not absolute. It becomes relative in relation to its own and to others.

Let me explain this. We know the term "as above so below" which indicates that whatever happens in one dimension happens equally in the lower dimensions" so the outer Universe has the same structure to our inner Universe of the body at atom and molecular level. Having the opportunity to wonder ourselves with similarity but more importantly, to give us an opportunity to learn from what is out there and apply it to what is in here, which in reality is the same or at least very similar.

The same happens in counciousness and awareness. As I AM THE ONE WHO MAKES IT HAPPEN, I have a very particular set of abilities and skills that make me exceptionally useful to my inner circles like family and friends as well as my outer circles as are my communities, society and the whole world itself. 'As above so below'.
As I get to know who I truly am and what I can do, I also realise what I AM NOT and cannot do. For example I'm very good in making business projects happen, starting from 0% to 10% is my realm. It has always been very easy for me to start a business, I find it simple and have no problem starting up the machine, having all the circumstances needed coming to me and alining with my desires. However, it's very challenging for me to keep the car going or do something useful with it. I normally end up bored and switching my attention somewhere else like a new project to start and leave behind.
At the beginning of my life thought this way of my personality to be a problem. If people are capable of having a project and see it until the end I should be able to do it as well, right?. Well, in theory yes, with a tiny winny difference, it is very difficult for me to do something I don't feel like doing. And again, I always thought of it as my lack of concentration or probably wrong Psicology like ADD (attention deficit desorder) instead of seeing it as part of my natural way and in perfect harmony with my Being and Universe.

Now after years and years of questioning myself, trying to find a light that can point me into the right direction suddenly some thing did. We all have our own abilities and disabilities which can be reversed at anytime just by the power of intention and with mind discipline. That is, someone like me can make of himself something different and learn more skills to help me Bee self-sufficient. At least that's what everybody does. Go to schools, universities and become professionals, they can proudly stand alone and create wealth and success... However, many still go back to the drawing board asking themselves 'is this all there is? Is this who I am? Is this my full potential?' And finally the big question 'Am I happy?' suddenly a hole inside the heart and a deep desire to cry appears showing us our true reality of unhappiness, deception and loss.
How come did we arrived to that point if we did everything we could to be happy at least everything we were told to do. As we keep asking these questions to ourselves we start opening the flow of new ideas and possibilities. We ought to go back to the beguining and start all over again. Something that only the brave and powerful can do. I mean we all are brave and powerful, the question here who Chooses to Bee?

When One finally sees a light pointing the right direction also sees others moving along getting closer and closer.
We are not longer lonely professionals but part of one big family who help, support and love eachother in the service to all. A big family that can only function successfully and efficiently with all the members onboard. If we can make our own family work together for a single project, we'll make our greater family (community, world) work together as ONE as well. Challenging, very challenging as moust of our families step on our toes and push our buttons to the extreme of explosion. But that is the way it is. 'As above so below' if we can make it work in small we will make it work in big.

In the big realisation, the small Big-Bang of creation, we come to understand that we are who we are and the way we are is perfection if you see it that way and are humble enough to look around for help offered and needed.

"Now, I as the Starter call upon my other parts to Awaken fully and Understand their roll in the greater sense of things"

I'm only the switch engine of this car, where are the wheels and the engine itself, the sits and the shields, every single part IT IS TIME TO RE-MEMBER... NOW.

We can make it work together or we can choose to struggle working alone, learning alone, being alone. The orchestra-man is not longer part of this symphony, now we ought to give others the opportunity to participate as we humbly reciprocate.

Only in this way we'll manage to evolve without outer chaos. Evolution and expansion are pushing forward, not only consciously but cosmically 'As above so below' and either we choose to go with the flow or we wait for the river bank to overflow and take you with it anyway. That is a Choice we can take Now.

We all are simply waiting for you to become part of Us. Let us Bee :)

LoveAlways
xXx

DEATH of an IDENTITY

Today was my first day trying to understand the basics of my identity. By experience I know that before seeing/understanding anything One has to step out of it. So, in my very personal way to see life I began by posting on Facebook declaring death to my name. Obviously many thought I was in some kind of danger. I AM NOT. But was very interesting to see how linked to our own identity we all are. What would someone like me do and what people expect from me? And knowing that and more importantly, what I'm not doing in order to fit into my own boundaries and those who know me?
Furtunately, I have reached a point in my life where I can consider to be VERY if not absolute honest with myself and others and have found not much I'm hiding from public view.
However, I clashed with many people that don't dare to be this open and find it confusing and aggressive even for anyone to step out of their own per-established identity.
- What are you doing? Are you ok? why are you doing it?
This were the main questions I discover people ask when for a strange reason One decides to do something different. Assuming there moust be something wrong or abnormal. In my case, people very easily assume I'm drunk or smoking weed, many times I've been drunk and high but that doesn't mean that what I'm expressing is not myself. But what about when One counciously decides to speak up One's mind. Exactly what One's thinking? I found the first blockage comes from our own mind. Almost immediately stoping something I want to express and become the thing that others will judge. The moust powerful of them our own judgements.

So, I began to question myself. If I don't allow myself to be this silly in public networks like Facebook. How many things I'm stoping myself from doing in life?

We become people's pleaser, not because we are afraid of their judgement (too) but because we have become addicted to their acceptance and agreement for our acts. As this syndrome begins to become stronger, our own sense of honesty becomes weaker.
We are not longer bound for what we are call to do, we do what's safer and that is what I found to be a barrier within my own identity. I live a public life in the open to everyone, professional, personal and social because I aim to become ONE with myself and with the rest.
This goes beyond the romantic ideas of the New Age where everybody takes about oneness and unity but the more I see this movement getting stronger the more I see people building structures and boundaries between themselves and everybody else.

There's a lot of romantic thinking out there and I find it to be as illusionary as Ego itself. Not real, for it can crumble in a second after a drink or two or if someone steps on their toes or worse when One's inspired to do something and doesn't dare to move a finger.

IAM THE ONE WHO MAKE IT HAPPEN, I know that the more I practice the smallest the gaps get between declaring and manifestation. I'm getting very good in creating change but how good I am in maintaining it? That is the question am getting very close to answer

In the meantime, I love creating confusion and chaos around me. Nobody knowing what to expect, I wish one day they expect only the unexpected, filling up their eyes with surprise and wonder with what One's capable of doing while awakening their curiosity to prove if they can do it as well.

LoveAlways
xXx

3.9.12 A New Era Begins

I started taking retrovirals for one single reason My Life. Its not really in search for truth and revelling against the world anymore. This time is for me. Because I deserve a better life than the one I'm currently on.
After so many years understanding my fears and limitations came to see clearly what's my truth about HIV. For me I can say that I still don't believe in the virus but for other side I see I have put a lot of pressure in my immune system. Maintaining strong even in the worst of situations. I went through so many doors and the opportunities for growth were amazing but all has its price. Mine was the level of stress, confusion, doubt I dealt with. However very satisfied with the results obtained as now I can enter this new situation by choice and not motivated by fear.

I'm very tired and I need extra help to get me back on my feet

xXx

1.9.12 Finally I can take a brake

I can't remember how it feels not to be in the struggle. Reaching higher to discover my own truth. Since I can remember I've been questioning myself and everything that affects me, maintaining my strength, endurance and capacity to fight back. I can say that I'm very proud of my achievements, I won't deny also that I'm now feeling very tired. Tired of the constant battle, gaining terrain over my own conditionings and fears. Understanding pain and suffering and truly feeling right inside.

Talking to a nurse last week she said "it seems to me you have reached the top of your mountain and now you can see clearly the land below. You have now the ability to take better choices that feel right for you. I think you've done it" I cannot measure the level of happiness and satisfaction that those words made me feel, right at the moment when I thought I had nothing left, no home, no money, no work, everything opens infront of me to show me that it's ok, now I can relax and be cared for. Now I know my truth and with that everything is right and perfect.
It's a very paradoxical situation feeling so good and at the same time so tired and weak but what makes it very interesting is a feeling deep with in that tells me that the good feeling will stay for ever and grow while the bad feelings of weakness and tiredness will disappear and transcend.

A big holiday of being me. I'll be back but right now it feels good to stop for a while and enjoy the moment of wisdom and inner peace I have achieved.

LoveAlways
xXx