25-26.4.12 A new journey begins

I left Mexico with very mixed emotions. Leaving the packing until the very last minute didnt help much but working until the very last day was something I always wanted to do.
I love giving my readings and in Metepec found a really good audience.
Packed as if I were coming to spends short time. I felt as if I were coming to do a job and then off to somewhere else. I don't know but for the first time I didn't want to run away from home. I had the most wonderful time with my mom and the people from Metepec that kept asking why would I have to go to London. I never had a real answer, mainly because I had none or a lot depending on how you see it but anyway you see it there was a fact and that was that I felt at home.

Took my flight back to London wondering if I'd ever get to my destination. I had few doubt or possible outcomes as my passport and visa had been washed on the washer machine and looked a bit damaged and second my passport had only four months to expire. Anyway, I took the leap of faith and as always it went really well. Had no problems in Mexico or arriving in the UK and now find myself sitting at David's place where I'll stay for a few days. He's been very kind and has welcomed me in his place regardless of braking our relationship. We now call each other friends but to be honest I feel a bit weird with this situation but terribly grateful with him and his flatmates.

Feeling tired and shaky for the bumpy ride we had back to London. The feeling of 'right, I'm here' is very strong and now is only a matter of dealing with the consequences.
I'll do my best to make this transition time something very nice and short. I want to create bridges and a beautiful new friendship. However, I admit Im feeling very keen about finding someone to love and who loves me back. I dont know if I ever felt this before, I know that if I did never was the way it is now. I want this person to be part of my progress from the very beginning and be part of my building up. I truly desire understanding, companionship, tenderness, care, admiration, friendship, loyalty, communication and much more from the person I'm with.
I want to discover the love for feeling love along with all of the emotions and feelings that comes with it.

Tomorrow we began our new project of building strong structures around me, my love and my life.

Thank you for a wonderful relaxing trip back home

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