Anyway, I knew today was going to be specially challenging since I was going to meet my friend Rebeca who wrote her bipolar experience and been reading for the last few days.
After reading few pages I realised how much I identify with what she calls "her condition" and for what's she's under medical treatment.
I began to question myself last night and began to worry about my own inner strength and self belief. I wondered about my mental health and how the world sees people like me.
Not knowing exactly why the Universe had arranged this meeting between us, I decided to follow my intuition and ask for guidance. This guidance came in a way of a post for Facebook. The post reads as follows: "Find your place under the spotlight and perform as you never did before. Get ready, your act is about to be called to central stage. TRUST, YOU CAN DO IT! xXx"
I knew there was something big about to happen, I thought was my meeting with Rebeca, so I prepared spiritually with a some kundalini yoga and 42 minutes of deep meditation.
During the first 22min of my meditation, I began to visualise my desires regarding my time back in London. I realised my true and deep desires to have a comfortable time, with a beautiful apartment and total financial freedom.
While visualising my desires I suddenly got into a conversation with my Higher-Self or what can I only call Father, God, Source or Universe.
As I was getting the image very clear in my mind and in my heart about my desired new reality, my new beautiful flat with modern leather sofas, a large living-room with enough space for my classes and coaching, a terrace with wooden floors for summer breakfasts and open air spaces, etc. The picture was growing in colors, depth and texture...
When a voice, a knowingness asked me: WHY? This voice was firm and kind if challenging my desired and my faith.
-Because I deserved it, I mentally replied (took me few instants to truly believe I deserved my dreams). But WHY? The voice asked again?
-Because I have more important things to do than worry about money or a place to be. I deserve to be surrounded by beauty that makes feel good and gives me comfort, motivation and inspiration (I began to feel more sure and secure about my desires) But WHY? The voice asked yet again.
-Because I want to have the time to fully dedicate myself and my time to write and share my experience with others, offering conferences, workshops and talks. Finish writing my recent journey that im sure will be a best seller and later my own biography.
Then the voice asked with deep authority but with massive love: WHAT IS STOPPING YOU? I realised I haven't done much writing lately and that I need to focus on this task full time with all my passion and vital energy if I want to see it succeed.
Of course I had no answer to that question and after an instant of inner silence, I came to understand that if I was going to have what I desired was going to be out of need more that just for pleasure and comfort.
As a humble, responsible and mature son of god I need to prove I'm worth my words and my deeds. I will have the opportunity to dedicate myself to sharing and writing if I indeed share and write in full. I will not worry about money, comfort, financial freedom, etc when I dedicate fully to my destiny and higher purpose.
I very intense sense of security and power overwhelmed me. I knew that my desires were in my hands to come true and real and for the first time in my life I began to feel like an architect of my own path.
As the day went by, I met with Rebeca who came to be a new soul mate in this spiritual path. I acknowledge our similarities and honour our differences. Powerful links were created between us and we shared so much light and transformation energy. Our lives will not be the same from now on.
As we said before, we are no longer the messengers, we have now become the message.
And so, we departed to probably meet again very soon. But whenever we do meet and whatever the circumstances we are linked to each other by the power of Light and God, forever and ever. Amen.
I began to write and as soon as I stop perfecting the writing everything became very fluid. I am writer, I am coach, I am visionary, I am healer, I am what I am, that is that!
I AM
xXx
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