Quantum Healing. Day 15

Today I had the opportunity to experience first hand the kind of quantum healing I'd like to talk about.

First, let me tell you a little story. This story is about natural health and the power of the mind.

All began 8 years ago, when I first found out the controversy theory about HIV.
This theory claims that HIV is not the cause of AIDS.
Regardless of the logistics and validity of such theory, I chose back in 2008, when I first encounter such claim, to trust and believe it. Knowing that there had to be be some sort of truth behind it, since scientist, doctors and journalist from all over the world were behind it. However, I couldn't put all my faith in the new ideas since the old beliefs about HIV did also resonated with truth within myself.

So, I did what I do best and throw myself into a new challenge to discover what the hell is true and real for me.

Of course, this means that what is true for me it is only that... true for me, and everything I share here should be taken as that... my truth and nothing else. I asume no responsibility over your shit. Your shit is your shit and you should know how to deal with that.

If you want to know about what happened between 2006 when I first got diagnosed HIV positive and 20-13, I suggest you buy my new book I  AM DARKLIGHT by Eduardo Emris. This book tells all the stories about how HIV did not kill me when it was supposed to do so.

However, this new sets of videos is intended to document the present moment and circumstances.
I've chosen to record this process now, because I believe to have finally found the Philosopher's Stone in regards healing AIDS naturally.

In this process, I have gone through a massive transformation, but I can say that the most meaningful one would be, the transformation of my mind. My subconscious mind to be exact. In this moment, I believe to be able to dive deep into the Dark waters of my mind without pain, anxiety or fear, and this helps me to have more understanding of the mechanics of my reality and how to move forward in the way I intend to live my life.
I am not saying I'm an expert in this field, but I can definitely say that I can find my way out of the darkness of my mind. This is particularly interesting, useful and beneficial since it allows me to achieve my goal, in health, peace and love.

So, today I begin a new countdown. In 15 days I will take a blood test to measure the level of this transformation, and it will be performed by the NHS, my HIV doctors to be more precise.

I have been determined to find natural vibrant health and balance for 8 years, but for the last 9 months, I've been receiving confirmation and proof, that what I've been doing is working and its healing my body and mind.

Quantum Healing is the ability to act and not-react in a conscious way. Able to learn from all the events and circumstances that the moment presents in awareness and trust that we are always moving in the right direction.


This is an example of Quantum Healing:
This happened to me today.

Imagine waking up in the morning. This is the moment when you begin to forget the dreams you dreamt during the night. You are still half-sleep and suddenly you can feel an intense fear harbouring in your heart. Immediately, your mind begins to look for the meaning of your fear.--  What is this fear all about? You ask yourself.
 Out of nowhere, your mind creates a scenario, which resembles past events when you felt the same fear, in similar circumstances. In that moment the fear feels familiar, you recognise it as yours and the fear grounds itself in you.

Anxious, you begin to worry. You know you have things to do, your day is awaiting for you. You cannot afford not to feel good, but you can't avoid feeling bad. In that moment you are presented with a choice....

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO?

You know where the fear comes from. You know its shape, Its colour and its strength. But you also know, you've been doing all you can to overcome your obstacles. You've been disciplined, and committed to change and improve yourself. You know you cannot longer live the way you did before.
You can't allow yourself to feel Not-Good-Enough, not powerful enough, not rich enough, not happy enough, not loved enough. But you cannot deny the fear and weakness that you feel. In that moment, you choose not to react, and sit in silence, waiting for the impulse to act.

Minutes pass and you let go of all your worries. Your eyes close and your mind becomes silent.
For a while, nothing happens. You are aware of the possibility of you not feeling well enough to go to work today, and that is ok. Your health is first. But you want to go, not because you have to but because you love what you do, and you know it will make you feel a lot better doing what you love doing, than staying alone in bed feeling afraid, naked and sick.

For a moment, you drift into no-mans-land but before the dream begins, it ends with an impulse to act. A certain energy overpowers your mind, and you get ready to go to work.

This day, you perform like never before. You find strength out of nowhere, and realised the symptoms you felt  were created by your subconscious mind, and the only thing your mind needed to make those fears real was the acknowledgment of your conscious self. In that moment, you know that if had believed that you were in fact sick, weak and tired you wouldn't have felt this strong right now. You don't know exactly how things happened, but you know you feel good, powerful and strong; and today becomes a very good day. You create, you trust and you heal. And so it is. 333

WHEN SHITS HIT THE FAN (And the Fan hits back)

February 12, 2016. 

WHEN SHITS HIT THE FAN (And the Fan hits back) 

   Right now I feel like everything is wrong. The sensations on my feet, the tiny pressure against the temples of my head, the sound of silence, the vacant mind; never before I experienced wrong in such a good way.
For days now, having experience a withdraw from something I'm still in the process of discovering what the fuck it is, I don't feel like escaping it. I don't want to drink, smoke, call a friend or answer the phone. All I want is to feel bad and do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about it. This may sound so strange, specially since I know exactly what to do to start feeling good again.

In the healthy side, I can meditate, do yoga or o for a long walk in the woods, repeat affirmations, cook a big healthy and delicious meal, or play with my cats; any of these would make me feel Godly again... But no, I choose no to, I choose to do nothing at all. Something in me is telling me not to avoid these emotions, and instead sink deep into solitary confinement.

On the other side, and this is where it gets very interesting, I don't feel the way I always felt, needy, frightened or out of control. This week I had countless occasions to give in into my old patterns. People called me from everywhere to invite me for a drink, a smoke or a fuck. And although was very tempting, somehow I saw myself saying NO to all of them.

I did have a very powerful event happening to me last week, when after a Hypnotic Regression something in me told me I had arrived at the end of the road, no more to discover ahead, only to create. Everything changed since then.
The person I thought I had wronged by not disclosing my HIV status when he unprotectedly had sex with me, came clean and told me that this is something he likes to do and gives him a boost every time he does it. Although, I felt like shit for days, went with him to hospital, kept almost in constant contact, and at the end I was the one being played at.

I was supposed to be the dark one, the crazy one, but shocking was the moment when things turned around. Being used and abused I chose to stop this treatment, and began to withdraw from them. I know who I am and how brilliant my shadow is, and let's not talk about my light because very few people can resist its shine. But even so, the moment when the darkness of ignorance finally revealed the moment's true face, it scared the shit out of me. (Not literally)

Today, I don't want to escape my reality. And this is SO FUCKING HUGE because I remember wanting to crawl back into my mother's womb when she brought me into this life. Every single second of my existence has been surrounded by the painful memory of a distant and not so distant past, future or not-here. Always wanting to die and escape in some way, shape of form. Drugs, sex and rock and roll made my day but not today. I feel a little proud thou for having the No-Need to run away, but I wonder what the hell is gonna happen now that I'm choosing to stay.

Am I happy? HELL NO!!! Am I sad? I was sad yesterday, when I said NO to the last invitation from a charming ghost. Am I depressed? Nah, I wish... If I were depressed I'd be sleeping all day. Am I angry??? Mmmm, I could but I have nothing to feel angry about.
I think, the way I feel is empty. But not empty bad, but empty good, or is it? Fuck knows.

One thing is certain, the fucking ME voice is not talking back to me, I can't have winding conversations with myself fantasising over world domination or soul damnation. I feel lonely without that constant evil company inside my head. The voice is gone or it is speaking very low. 333

The Saddest day

February 11, 2016. 11:11pm. 

Today has been the saddest day of my life; everything I loved about being me is gone. Paradoxically, the things I loved were the same ones that killed many times my joy, but somehow made me feel alive.
I remembered one day, not long ago, I made a choice. I decided not to die for anyone not even myself and that promise has come true.
Funny enough, I never expected to feel so miserable having achieved everything I wished for. Maybe, it didn't help to have such different view of the world, where in my reality I am immortal, God is a satellite box as sad and lonely as I am, I enjoyed traveling to different dimensions but the bus journey killed my lungs and have decided to quit, I see illness as a road map to greatness and pity those who knows nothing about pain and in nightmares fear their own death.

Yesterday, somebody said to me that I look very scary, and for a moment he thought I was a serial killer, but even though he feared me, he couldn't resist my attraction and hoped his fears would disappear with a kiss; he was right; his words shocked me thou. He also said that I have very spooky, crazy eyes; I always thought they were actually quite beautiful, I guess I was wrong.

Anyway, I realise that by choosing to not to kill myself with harmful substances and organisms (such as virus, bacteria and fungi) today I feel dead, sad and pretty much alone; just like my version of our great god. Having everything I could possibly wish for, I wish for nothing. I observe and laugh about the weaknesses of the mere mortals around me, I enjoy the sun but use sunblock, I love the moon but I rather sleep during the night, I hate junk food and think ugly people should die. (I'd leave the judgement of who's ugly and who's not to you.) I find money such an inconvenience but an amazing catalyst, and I love being worshipped.

Today, is the first day of my new life and I have no idea who I am, but I'm Christic-Clear about who am I not. The Satellite-Box-God is such a sad little God, I might invite him to join us, of course, If ok with you. And for the rest, I guess there's not much to say. But let me say this: I will choose Death once again at 108, looking as young as today, healthy, beautiful and strong. Death will happen ONAIR and in front of yo. I will survive all your wars, will combine all your gods, and will transform all your thoughts... and in the end, you won't even know my name. 333

Letter to Professor Jim Al-Khalili.

Hello Professor,

I am the Quantum Patient, and I want to share my story with you about the experience of of quantum consciousness and its practical applications on health and wellbeing.
In 2006 I was diagnosed HIV positive and twice, I attempted to kill myself. Once out of darkness and the second, like a moth, seduced by the light. In both occasions after coming back to life, I saw a quantum field in front of me that opened the possibility to heal and cure myself of all disease. Of course, through the right application of "Knowing the Not Knowing" but knowing quite clearly what needs to be done, and that is today's Question and Discipline.

Although I'm not a scholar, not even a graduate, I have come in contact with rather unique information inside the mind, that gradually allowed me to understand new realities in front of us. I don't know the names people has given to the streets I walk through, but I have a map and I can find my way blindly. Such blessing or ability invites me with confidence to open my Pandora Box in front of you, in the hope that it secrets may seduce your curiosity to see and experience what I call Quantum or Christ Consciousness for yourself.
Everything is rather chaotic at the moment, nothing is certain and a lot is very confusing. But within the vortex of possibilities, one pops out rather auspiciously and it calls for attention. This is how it works for me, maybe for everyone else too, but in my case, I cannot longer ignore the call and pretend I know better, or what others may think about it is more important.

My sole intention is to humbly present my story to you. Nothing more, nothing less, finding quantum possibilities, wormholes, multi-dimensions, past and present lives, and all sorts of paranormal activity rather useful in the treatment of emotional and physical pain.  Somehow, the experience of all, makes perfect sense of the vision of the singularity of nothing and the skill to work with blocks, makes the structure quite strong. Especially when becoming immune and immortal.

I hope all is well and the story finds its very unique way to make contact.
Thank you, it is a pleasure and an honour being able to write to you.

Humbly,


Eduardo Emris

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