The beginning of something great

During the last days/weeks/months/years/life I've been experiencing the difficulties of discovering who I am and learning to be honest to myself by living my truth. However, with all the gratitude and love I cannot stop feeling tired of this insignificant situations like the pain inside my throat which in the last few days has come back to hunt me, precisely in the time when I became homeless and have been applying for housing benefits to the UK government. Not really a very useful situation to have to cope with the pain every time I swallow or worse, every time I have something to eat, but last night I spend the night with a friend and forgot to take with me the antibiotics I'm taking for everything. In the chaos of the pain I did the only thing I could to alleviate the sensation and that was to evoke the energies, angels, masters and everything in between. Right now it feels better. Anyway, I'm sharing this because in general I have lost a lot of faith in that realm, I couldn't believe that after coming back to London full of expectations and dreams, my body reacted in such a way that hinder all my possibilities to see positive results. Instead I felt pain after pain, like I never did before, I was getting weaker and weaker and life was collapsing on it own. I couldn't undertand why? I still have very deep doubts about why, even thou right now I can see a bit more clearly the greater picture and although I'm very grateful with the results obtained since I've been given temporary accommodation for the next 45 days while my case is investigated, I cannot stop feeling that I need my body to work with me to make this process more enjoyable and pain-free. This is the first time in my life I truly have nothing, but out of nothing something is being created and it's wonderful been open to receive so much support and love from people, social workers, friends, etc. This experience is definitely grounding me like I never felt before. Finally after so many years I'm putting my feet over mother earth proud and happy to receive its bounty while I create strong foundations to support my life, my dreams, myself. Blessings xXx