13.6.12 I'm grateful but sad

So if I'm sad I'm not really that grateful or probably I'm sad because I'm leaving a level of comfort and safety provided by David. Maybe I'm grateful because its exactly what I want and how I'm envisioned myself in selfless service. Maybe I don't know why I'm sad or if I'm truly grateful.

Is like I asked for a bicycle and I got a pair of socks. Oh god, I don't want to be ungrateful so why do I feel sad. What am I leaving behind? Why do I want to cry instead of rejoice? I feel I'm taking the right decisions and making the right, more honest moves.

I'm happy with the way things are but I wish I could enjoy more abundance and financial freedom. I'm grateful for having friends that help me out.
I'm going to change my tactics about life. I better enjoy my PT for it is a great way to enjoy freedom and strength.

I better do the best I can
LoveAlways
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