28.6.12 I had a dream

Running around the house, trying to collect what we think is going to be useful for the 'aftermath'. Jewellery with special emotional value, walking boots, big jackets for extreme cold, etc.

We were all there, my grannies making sure that their share was also taken. A mat to lay dawn and few other things. But as always they came to show their unconditional support and reassurance that everything is alright. That this is a transition moment and that we are in good hands.
We may encounter challenges but we'll do our best and leave victorious. Doing the job that we came here to do, guiding souls through darkness in light.

A terrible catastrophe where everything flooded. Meters under the water was now the world we once knew. Above it, only few survivors of strong will and pure hearts float and swim around. Horses were there ready to complete the journey and help others when the waters subdue.

I was worried I took the right things with me, like survival or other essentials. I swam down through the clear waters of change to reach belongings i may need, mother and brother tell me is all useless now, what is gone is gone and I took what I needed to take, the rest I just need to let go.
I realise that the only thing really needed is trust, faith and love. We are guided as we guide others and everything is alright as we say our final goodbyes, knowing the journey we take is a different journey for each.

And so, we depart with all that we are, secure, confident, convinced, strong with all the love and light from the cosmos. With a tear of pain in our hearts leaving behind the old life.

A new journey begins...

22.6.12 Philosopher's Stone

Last night we found the Philosopher's Stone. The connective piece between 3 worlds. Mother Of Creation, Sustainer Of Love and Destruction Of All. A time of great awakening, understanding and great responsibility. There's nothing I can do now other than being. While a cyclone of transformation erases all traces of impurity, We now OPEN ME, MYSELF & I from the root to the roof. A channel, a bridge, a connection, in trust, in light, in LoveAlways xXx

13.6.12 I'm grateful but sad

So if I'm sad I'm not really that grateful or probably I'm sad because I'm leaving a level of comfort and safety provided by David. Maybe I'm grateful because its exactly what I want and how I'm envisioned myself in selfless service. Maybe I don't know why I'm sad or if I'm truly grateful.

Is like I asked for a bicycle and I got a pair of socks. Oh god, I don't want to be ungrateful so why do I feel sad. What am I leaving behind? Why do I want to cry instead of rejoice? I feel I'm taking the right decisions and making the right, more honest moves.

I'm happy with the way things are but I wish I could enjoy more abundance and financial freedom. I'm grateful for having friends that help me out.
I'm going to change my tactics about life. I better enjoy my PT for it is a great way to enjoy freedom and strength.

I better do the best I can
LoveAlways
xXx

12.6.12 I am Kukulkan

What a day. Since yesterday I felt the very strong need to make some changes in my life. I was feeling tired and very low in energy, spending most of my time sleeping, eating or avoiding reality.
I knew something was going to shift and today that shift happened by knowing exactly who I am.
Sounds simple but even before today I had my doubts. Why? Because I kept settle for less. With this, I mean the Personal Training is not 'me' anymore, I just feel out of place and like wearing a suit that doesn't even fit.
So I talked to the managers and I gave notice to end my contract.
On the other hand I came up with the new point of view of selling myself instead of my services. Pretty much like I've done before but this time with more cloths on ;)

Taking a turn and strong faith about who I am and what I'm doing here.
xXx

9.6.12 I need love

For the last few days I've been feeling depleted of energy and love. I'm sure is because I have few days of not doing my meditation but I just don't feel like it. There's an emptiness in my heart and can't seem to find something Or someone to fill it up with.
I've been to Alchemy to talk about me using the therapy rooms and no one was there, I was told to write an email and I did with no answer.
I'm going to the gym and I just wait for the minutes and hours to pass to run out as if something great awaits me but there's nothing there.
I get back at David's home and eat whatever I can, mainly tuna and rice then of to sleep. I'd sleep all day of everyday if I could which tells me that I might be a little depressed.
I have the syndrome of doing what I need to do but I'm not having fun, on the contrary I'm just getting tired.
Is like eating ready meals, they fill you up but don't satisfy you. Well that's how I feel, the thing is that I don't even want to cook something else. Again, it feels like cooking for myself alone. How boring is that.

Anyway, I'm off tomorrow to teach my class at MoreFit and then at 1pm ill be in a pub giving tarot reading.
I hope to meet interesting people and get few good £££ out of it.

Oh God, I want to fall in love or find a new best friend or get a dog or whatever. I don't enjoy feeling empty. Now thinking about it, since I went to the dr and began to heal my bum everything lost interest. Like as the pain wore me out.

Anyway, tomorrow will be another day
LoveAlways
xXx

5.6.12 Venus Transit

3 days of complete readjusting, nothing makes sense, life feels alien to my feelings, the body aches and my mind is in a constant dream-like state.

The workshop on Sunday went great, great people, great energy. I gave 100% of myself there. The time went very quickly and got few good reviews.

I'm taking every day as it is. These last few days we had the diamond jubilee and that gave us 4 days long weekend and the perfect time to relax and stay home doing absolutely nothing, well, eating and sleeping a lot.
I realise I need not to think too much and just go with the flow and that's what I'm intending to do.

The pain I was feeling is now been identified as herpes and now I'm with antibiotics and antiviral medication and feels as if it's working. Herpes is a viral dis-ease caused by stress, a stress I been feeling in this new phase of my life building on security and safety for myself. I need to learn to relax and trust that everything will be alright as it has always been.

Meantime, I feel I just need to keep doing what I'm doing and everything will turn just right. Not much questioning or minding just simple flowing and trusting.

I've been feeling a very deep longing for love, company and intimacy. Like the person I'm going to fall in love with us just around the corner.
Let's see

xXx

2.6.12 The night before

Mom said, be very careful with what you say for the laws are materialising words as we speak.
And with that intention we cross the bridge into a new reality.

Today felt the energies very intense, morning Metatron healing with Lisa made a very powerful start of the day with the beautiful oportunity invite more people to the workshop.
Later certain pain made almost impossible the walking around and almost fly back home to put myself in bed for the rest of the day.
Now ready, calm, relaxed, confident, secure, and very trusting to what is yet to come.

Tomorrow will be what tomorrow will be, today feels great being different, a special connection with a new reality and peace of mind and heart.

Today is a great day
xXx

1.6.12 Magic time to make it happen

Different ways of acquire knowledge have presented in front of my awareness. There's a very strong sense of 'new' around my heart and the way I perceive things. Completely agree and go with the flow in matters of existence where I realise that a higher intelligence is making the moves as the process continues.
Learning to let go of my controls and fears is what has become a priority, realising that there's a stone already in place marking the beginning of the foundation of a new structure.

I know what to do and there's nothing I can do to not do it. A sense of rituals and celebrations to mark the beginning and the end. To make it clear, there's no more mind as limiting organ as with a new activated pituitary and pineal glad becomes and integrated energy source of ascended understanding and creation.

A stepping stone into the reality of co-creation and transformation.
I am source of transmutation and change of old vibration patterns of fear, doubt and disconnection as they are now transformed through the love of my existence and that of Father Energy Source of all into trust, light and love. Who now works through me in the expression of heavenly work.

This pain which has been present for so long has given me the awareness of new ways to think and feel about myself. How the vibration of thoughts have transform the experience lived and how the greater architect with immense love guide us through the night.

In this new dimension I know nothing, I need nothing, I am nothing. There's only flow of energy-love passing through.

All is well... And so it is!
LoveAlways
xXx