While I was in Coma

8th January, 2012
Couldn't breathe and I lost consciousness but I also gained access to another place...

FIRST STAGE:
Everything is red, red lights, red shadows, red energy. I'm scared. Nothing feels right. I'm alone but I can't move. My body doesn't respond, I don't know where I am. I hear noises, someone is outside, I think is my mother, I'm not sure. I'm terrified, please somebody help me. Nothing,- everything is fussy, I can't distinguish forms. I see shadows... I'm cold. SOMEBODY HELP ME! - No, I can't talk either. -Where am I? Why nobody listens? What's happening? Who's talking?

I can still hear my mother and she's with my aunt outside this room. -What room? Where are they? where am I? Why are not allowed to see me? Why cannot see them? What am I doing here?
- I know I'm in hospital, I can remember the ambulance and the two male nurses who brought me in. I remember not being able to breathe or talk, so why I'm not having problems breathing or talking now? I'm not in my body right now. I don't feel or see my body, so who am I? what am I seeing? Is this my mind? How am I seeing? I'm so scared, I don't want to be here. I feel cold. Arrrrrgggghh, Please God help me! Somebody help me!!!

- Who's there? There's someone here, - I can see you. Let me see your face!. Why I cannot see your face? What do you want? Who are you? Leave me alone! What's that...? Is that powder? Why are you blowing it all over me? Wait, wait. Where are you going? Please somebody talk to me! What's happening to me?...

-Ma' where are you? I can still hear you but can't see you.
-Yes, I can feel you. -Yes, yes, I can feel you!! I know you're close. Thank you mother, I'm sorry for all this pain I'm causing you. I'm so sorry, please forgive me. What...?
- Yes, ok... I'll calm down. I'm very scared, I don't know what's going on.
- Ok, yes, I'll relax. Stay with me, please don't leave me alone.
- Yes, I still feel you, as if you were inside my heart and speaking to me in whispers. I love you mom.

SECOND STAGE

-Where are they taking me? Where is my mother?
I feel more relaxed now, is like they were waiting for me to calm down. Now I can be taken into another room.
-Oh look! That's my family. I can hardly see them all from this far but I know they're there. This corridor is pretty large, where are we going? Probably I'm here to see my family and so they can see me too. I don't know why but I'm very grateful I can see them. My cousins, aunts and uncles and of course my mother. Thanks god for that.

-Hey, is that you love? What are you doing here? You're supposed to be in London. I can't see you, come closer.
-Yes, it's you my love! Why are you crying? where am I? This feels like a box, why am I in a box?. Oh don't cry, I'll be fine, you know me. I always get better. Oh my love, I love you, please don't cry....

THIRD STAGE

What's this now? Where are we? We, who's we? I'm going silent. I not talking, only knowing. This is not about me, this is something beyond mind. Am I dead? Everything is black, dark but I can sense great depth, why am I still thinking? am I thinking?. It's Nothing, no sounds, no light, no forms. Just very silent...



FORTH STAGE

LIGHT! Im not talking - only seeing and feeling, I'm aware. I can see a vast horizon opening in front of me. As vast as my perception can become aware of. I feels as if I were in front of a massive beach of pure light. I can see a line, like the ocean when it meets land. Everything is so bright, something inside call me to move forward. I begin to approach the dividing line. This place is huge, there's a sense of expansion beyond anything I know and somehow it also feels very familiar.
With every move forwards I feel as leaving behind my body. I feel lighter, I don't feel gravity. I'm expanding, oh this is beautiful. I'm now as large as the space I'm in. I feel at home, secure, protected, guided, loved. Loved, YES! I feel very loved and welcomed. This is where I belong. I'm getting closer to the crossing line. I'm flying, is this flying? As I move closer and closer I feel the expansion of my being covering all space, I have no weight. A very strange yet powerful sensation of freedom. I'm not longer my body. I am at peace. I feel peace. I feel great. I feel ready!

What's that? Who's that? I can see shapes standing on the water or whatever it is on the other side. Definitely they are people but can't see any heads or feet. They look like flames of light standing next to each other. They are here to welcome me back, yes, I can feel them, I feel their love. There's so much love. I feel that love is me too. I am love. I'm going home.

I'm about to cross now, two figures approach me, it feels as my ... Oh my god, granny, grandpa. You're here, Oh my Lord, I love you so much, thank you, thank you, thank you. I know, it's now. It's time to go. Lets...

- What's that? A ray of light coming from behind me over my right shoulder makes a turn and gets right into my heart. Like a fishing line made of light and connecting into my heart. Somebody is bulling me back. I can feel a tiny pull back but is not strong enough to stop me from crossing, but wait...
Now I can there are more lights coming from behind me, in every direction, so many, so quick, From every direction but all coming from behind. Right left from below and above all turning and getting into my heart and pulling me back. This time they are much stronger. I can see my granny and grandpa moving away. Nooooo, please, I don't want to go back. Please let me stay.
-No, I'm not going back. I don't want to go back, I don't want to go back. NOOOOOOO....!

---SON STOP RESISTING AND LET GO. YOUR NEXT 40 YEARS ARE NOT THE SAME AS YOUR PREVIOUS ONES. NOW IS TIME TO APPLY YOUR EXPERIENCE. THE TIME OF PAIN IS NOW OVER, GO ENJOY BEING AND SHARE. REMEMBER YOUR LIFE NOW THEIRS.---

FORTH STAGE
-Oh god, I'm back. Oh this feels so heavy, this world is so cold. What are they doing to me. What the... Is that water? Am I being clean. This body is in so much pain... I cant move, my throat hurts, everything hurts... but I'm alive.... again.
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As I woke up and gained consciousness, found my mother by my side. She then told me the miracle created on Facebook where she managed to blog every day her emotions and pain.
She also told me about the chains of payers and healing work done to me in so many parts of the world. Bali, India, Spain, London, Chile, Brazil, Mexico. Counting with Mayan Elders and Shamanic healers. Probably hundreds if not more united in pray, powered by my mothers love and compassion with one intention.... to bring me back.

I knew from that moment that the lights that pull me back were in fact all the prayers and healing work with my name. I also knew that my life is not longer mine as I was ready to give it away. Now my life belong to them, to all of them. And from that moment I can only Bee their servant. I am devoted to my master, the collective consciousness of this planet.

... So help me God

LoveAlways
xXx