This is much easier than it sounds, since it doesn't involve physical death. However, the fact that I went through two very powerful close to death experiences (NDE) makes it a lot easier to achieve, now that the fear of dying forms no longer part of my reality and my mind knows what means and feels to loose it all.
WHAT FOR? The reason and purpose it's easy to explain. This is the quest of total submission of the mind into achieving enlightenment.
WHAT IS ENLIGHTENMENT? The absolute balance and connection between the outer and inner world or as Buddha puts it, the end of suffering.
WHY? This began as a journey of self-healing and happiness many years ago, and has become a quest into discovering who I truly am. In every sense, as deep and as revealing as possible. For my own higher benefit and for the benefit of all. WHY? I have nothing better to do :)
HOW? Well, here comes the tricky part since this process it's about NOT doing. Which, if you can trust me on this, it's so fucking difficult. The mind (specially mine) tends to jump like a spoiled monkey from past to present, to future and to past again like an uncontrollable machine of thought. During this process much emotion it's created, much of it becomes suffering, simply because it's not real. Past and future are creations of a self-aware mind that remembers and projects. However, during this self-enlightening process, we become hooked on the ideas of an enriched ego. Our job is to detect this situation and stop it. Not by telling how wrong it is, because it's not wrong, the mind and ego are doing simply something that feels good to them. However, it does not serve the rest of the team which are the body and the soul. This is what creates suffering and pain, which in time translates into illness and eventually death.
So, how to stop this process or at least become aware enough to use it to our advantage? In my experience that becomes the Discipline of NO MOVEMENT.
It's a whole practice and lifestyle but it can be resumed in a very simple structure.
DO NOT - WANT NOT - THINK NOT
BUT HOW????? All great teachers talk about this moment but it feels so impossible, if we can't even stop thinking how are we going to stop wanting, and even more impossible how to stop doing. We live in a world of massive energy expenditure. We need to work to survive, Calories are burnt with every breath and with every breath we live and die. How to stop thinking?
- I begin by controlling my breathing patterns and rhythms. With patience, discipline and determination somehow, I know, I'll find the way into my own enlightenment. That is because MY HEART DESIRES IT AND MY MIND BELIEVES ITS POSSIBLE.
Right now, I'm reaching a point of a very slow existence and thinking. My time is slowing down, way down. I don't know what will happen next, but I'm doing everything that feels right...which in this moment is Nothing. I do Observe and Listen a lot with gratitude and love though but this a passive attitude more than an activity.
Also, I'm becoming aware of how my reality begins to transform and everything and everyone change accordingly, but I feel too stupid to even dare to understand or control. At this point I'm only experiencing, allowing and documenting the process, I keep up my yoga and meditation practice and have stopped and avoid at all cost all toxic foods and situations.
My training includes very intense physical exercises, body weight and calisthenics, I'm training my mind with Telepathic inter dimensional communication, psychic astral projection, archetypes, yoga and meditation. I have started using mono-atomic products to enhance and protect my systems body and mind, avoid fluoride, tap water (drink only spring water), eat as natural, fresh and DELICIOUS as possible. I cook all my food, bless all my food and waters. Follow the cycles of the moon, translate messages from animals and plants, grow my vegetables and plant flowers. Pick up rubbish and clean up my surroundings, invite friends for lunch, and dance and sing in every opportunity.
Talk very little, do very little and finally I'm beginning to think very little. At this right moment I can say, IAM EXACTLY WHERE I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE and I'm enjoying every second. Will it last? I don't think so, reason why I must enjoy it to the maximum and I know this document will help me remember how one day everything began to stop and my life began to flourish.
LoveAlways x 333
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