Am I ready or too damaged?

In the glory that I've always dreamt living never occurred to me that one dream could change my life so much in the course of one night.
I'm not talking about dreams of grandiosity, money or love that we built over time but about the dreams lived while we sleep, hardly remembering them when we wake up and completely forgotten in seconds. The dream of another dimension where all is harmony like music, a great symphony being played only in our mind, however chaotic or fantastic it may sound.

I had a dream of amazing powers working as a postman delivering a message of astonishing precision, the moment of truth so many of us are waiting for. The confirmation of a marriage between worlds along with the understanding of our own. However, before the final word is delivered a signature of consent must be provided as a contract in agreement, the final step to receive what we've been so afraid of taking.

The message was an invitation to come aboard, a gala of universal proportions, a feast to the mind and soul. But as to all other special events, one must prepare in advance. One can not arrive in a beggars cloths to a ball of abundance and pride.

What to take this time; for skills, precious stones and wallets of gold are not required, only the shine of a pure heart will serve as the key to open the gates of the wonderful gift already waiting for its owner to be claimed.
And I questioned myself. Have I that shine, am I worth it or have I shrunk in shame and fear after years of walking in darkness and pain. Would I be willing to miss my place in the great celebrations all because of tears, feelings of unworthiness and laziness? Of course not, thou it hasn't been easy to crack down the fragile shell I constructed around myself in the hope of peace and security.
Like a chick making tiny crack into its eggshell struggling to get the first drop of air that will save her from certain death.

Now, there's no time to waste as we brake free from that that created us, the time of transformation and maturity it's now done, finished and we need to open our wings and fly with the wind. Only then, we can enjoy the fruits that allow us to travel to greater horizons.

Sunday the 7th April 2013, came with a great message surrounded by pain as a reality check.
We look forward to our present and we Thank you for our future.

LoveAlways
xXx


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Posts on the 4th in April days

11. Night fallen on the lap and dreams are crawling loud and bright. Let this day go down in bane and my love to live forever beyond the pain.THANK YOU ALL for your unconditional love,
Four ever elements are untwined with our hearts united joining might n'might xXx

10. All my words are original works which mock the quotes of your ridiculous world xXx

9. From all the juices of this world I love yours above them all xXx

8. Most people live as others thoughts winning over figures that shake them out of joy xXx

7. IAM THE LIGHT WHIVCH LIVES AT NIGHT xXx

6. FUCK YOU, you are doomed.You have hurt us for too long and there is no way you can now mend our pain.
To the fire of my rage I push you to your death and there's no mercy for IAM them xXx

5. I'm not only in your face book, iAM also in your dreams 3:33. Every night I kiss you on the day of your rebirth xXx

4. My flesh smells of young blood running through my veins. Your youth is my doom and in your chest I plunge my pray xXx

3. I bless organic and free range 333 xXx

2. This is the blood of your Christ 33.3 xXx

1. Can you feel the winter in your bones? That's the unbalance of you all.
You're too fearful of the unknown and bringing sorrow with a storm.
Let it all be done and loose the shaking from the core.
You has the power of the gods, please keep us warm in your explode xXx

LoveAlways

xXx

A letter to Myself

To You who speak of LIGHT but still live in DARKNESS...
To You who speak of TRUTH but know nothing but LIES...
To You who speak of LIFE in the journey of your DEATH.

We were born out of Darkness and our Light it's only joy, with the comfort of your knowing our Truth as the only god.

Who cares of your beliefs if you don't truly believe them yourself. Better love your unbelieving for that will taste the sweetness of your breath. Wanting to believe is not the same as knowing you believe, to know One must experience first. Without experience there's only doubt in faith and for faith to exist needs always a Mind in the mist. Take this humble current of love that comes and goes with the wind, catch your breath and start all over again.

LoveAlways
xXx

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Lonely words

There are words in a diary that are meant as a private container for laughs and tears, in contrast there are others which serve as a treasure map to somebody's heart.
The first kind is guarded with pride and against all intruders, the other is left alone lying around hoping someone will pick it up and learn all its secrets.

I never knew one of the first kind. All my words have been left floating over the winds of time in the hope that one day will land on fertile ground turning darkness into smiles.
What would the people say after I'm gone? Many will say nothing, others will say too much, but as I've leant to say, 'God will say it all'.
Was I someone who cared for others more than me? Of course not. Did I care for me more than others? Completely wrong too. Did I care for anything or anyone at all? I only cared for one single thing and that was love. A love that I never understood or felt but knew that it undoubtedly existed and made part of all. An illusion of joy, health and youth which travels the oceans as whales in command of the Seven Seas. Yes, I cared for something but I never trusted 'that something' cared for me for it kept eluding me like a fish avoiding the net. Was I the net or the fish? That I will never know, for sometimes I loved to swim free but others I longed to be caught in love.

To whom to cry my tears if there's no one to hear? To the Wind which takes them to the sky and makes them disappear. To the Water who wash its sorrows and makes them rain over again or to the Fire which burns in love all that once was and no longer is or to the Earth, going back to heaven in return of gold.

Words that no one will read, words that no one will care. Sing a song of sorrow, sing my song of joy. As others protect their privacy, I offer mine in whole to all the public elements of this planet to use my love as children's toy.

To the day of death a stone will read, 'I did not know him well but I love to read his tales'

LoveAlways
xXx

Life is just not all that

Just imagine what kind of mind would accept a statement like the title of this post. If life seams not to be all that we expect its simply because we are expecting something different, even thou unwanted.
This creates a new round of events that supports your ideas about yourself, however real, beneficial or practical they may be. Lets imagine that you've been trying to heal yourself for few years now and you actually have succeeded beautifully in this task, since transforming your body has been the only thing in your mind for so long, having nothing to heal or complain about creates a void for the mind is not used to this new condition. Here, either a new condition is created to support your need to constantly heal yourself or learn new tricks to support your real needs of love, happiness and abundance.

This sounds like a job for a therapist but lets imagine for a second we have the capacity to transform ourselves like a butterfly without others needing to help us change into the beauty we know we already are. Maybe you are doing that and life is taking new colours but as the process that it is, it takes time.

So, what now? KEEP THE FAITH, look forward, focus on the love and the light you so much desire for your life. Now we heal the mind and the spirit. Having been battered and abused left its emotional scars but you are in the way out. You've learnt your lesson and now it's time to move on. Just remember to focus on what you want and you'll soon see how life is ALL THAT :)

LoveAlways
xXx

April's Fool

Wake up several times during the night. The dreaming so intense and in a way, so well calibrated that felt so much like a reality.
I was with my older brother and we were both trying to deal with the new reality of being enlightened. Not in any sense of religious divinity but instead in a very practical way in understanding in the laws of the universe, the ones we already knew and new ones becoming accessible to us.

You would've imagine this to be a very exciting and happy moment and it was, if it weren't for a person who seemed to be very distraught by this and were after us un a rampage of anger and violence.
We were inside of some sort of theatre where a movie was going to be played, more than just a recreational film it felt like instructions for the new life ahead. Very futuristic tapping into different dimensions but that wasn't too intense as we (my brother and I) were trying to keep safe from the angry man who looked actually very decent, handsome, well built with his blond and blue eyes. But very scared, as if he were trying to stop the process.

This became a scene of sci-fi thriller running from room to room inside the now space ship or something with lots of tubes, buttons and machines programmed with tasks. The pressure ended when I get inside of a car and started the car, I remember a part of my primitive mind, angry and frighten wanted go run the man over but in a move from my now enlightened mind made the very intelligent move to just trap him between the wall and the car with a masterful move that I knew was part of the new mind.

We managed to talk to the blond man and sort of making him see things differently. More of my family were arriving, this time my mother and her partner and we lined up to see that film and whatever we needed to learn from it. Oh wonderful surprise when this kind of OZ starts sharing information. I'm not sure if we were all told the same thing or if different information was been accessed by different people.

I suddenly started to understand the process of healing and pain. I had a very clear understanding how the healing process works as a helix, that means if one wants to heal the left arm if someone, one has to focus the healing energy through the right arm. Everything was about finding balance between the extremes. If we are dialling with insomnia we should focus on the attitude and intention when we are awake. If we are experiencing pain in some part of the body we should focus the attention to the other side when there's no pain. This would cancel the effects of dis-ease but even though this feels too simple and even ridiculous remember that we were talking already at another level of understanding where healing is all done through the power of thought and intentionality. As if we, just by seeing things differently could change the reality inside our bodies and the bodies of other people.

I kept walking up from this dream in some kind of integration to my reality. Then falling asleep again and continuing the lecture or teaching were we left. This happened 2-3 times, maybe more and it all made perfect sense.

Looked around and everyone else was in the same state of wonder and owe as if we had been revealed a great secret but a different one each. We felt very close and without words communicating the feelings to each other. It definitely felt like the beginning of something great.

When I fully woke up again I felt as if I had and accident, all my body aches and I have a very sharp feeling of exhaustion. There's a pain that comes and goes from my throat and there's is a very eery feeling in the atmosphere. All very quiet and there's no much light from the new day outside. I just listening a vibration inside my ears which makes everything feel like a dream. This is happening on London, UK at 9:33am on the 1st of April, 2013.

xXx